i wonder if you'd realize that she means alot more to me.
today was much of a mix, really
I guess this is what they call.. killing yourself in small doses.
♥ 4:15 PM
Thursday, June 29, 2006 <data:blog.pageTitle/>
until you're back here, baby
what's a partridge, and what's a pear tree? well I don't know so please don't ask me but I can bet those are terrible gifts to give
so if anything, tomorrow's not gonna be any better.
you make me want to be a better person, and its scary how everything reminds me of you.
i cant study.
♥ 5:01 PM
<data:blog.pageTitle/> THE RULES: Bold the statements that are true to you. Italise the statements that you WISH are true. Leave the fibs alone. Then, stab 5 people to do the same test and leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say he/she has been tagged.
I miss somebody right now. I dont watch TV these days. I wear glasses or contact lenses. I love to play video games. I've tried marijuana. I have been in a threesome. I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship. I believe honesty is usually the best policy. I curse sometimes. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year. I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me. I've broken someone's bones. I'm paranoid sometimes.(all the time, you mean) I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free. I need money right now. I love sushi. I talk really,really fast. I have long hair. I have lost money in Las Vegas. I have at least one sibling. I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past. I couldn't survive without Caller I.D. I like the way i look. I am usually pessimistic. I have a lot of mood swings. I have a hidden talent. I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar i have. I have a lot of friends. I am currently single. (hahhahahhah) I have pecked someone of the same sex. I enjoy talking on the phone. I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants. I love to shop. I enjoy window shopping. I would rather shop then eat. I don't hate anyone. I'm a pretty good dancer. I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother. I have a cell phone. I believe in God. I watch MTV on a daily basis. I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months. I have rejected someone before. I have no idea what i want to do for the rest of my life. I want to have children in the future. I have changed a diaper before. I've called the cops on a friend before. I'm not allergic to anything. I have a lot to learn. I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger. I am shy around the opposite sex. I have tried alcohol before. I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past. I own the "South Park" movie. I would die for my best friends. I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza. (are you mad) I have used my sexuality to advance my career. I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all. Halloween is awesome because you get free candy. i never had sweet halloween dreams you see. I watch Spongebob Squarepants and i like it. I am happy at this moment! I'm obsessed with guys. I have more than just my ears pierced. I walk barefoot wherever i can. (indian..dance?) I have jumped off a bridge. I love sea turtles. I spend ridiculous money on makeup. Plan on achieving a major goal/dream. I'm proficient in a musical instrument. I worked at McDonald's restaurant. I hate office jobs. I love sci-fi movies. I think water rules. I went college out of state. I like sausages. I love kisses. I fall for the worst people. I adore bright colours. I can't live without black eyeliner I don't know why the hell i just did this stupid thing. I usually like covers better than originals. I can pick up things with my toes. I can't whistle. I can move my tongue in waves I have ridden/owned a horse. I still have every journal I've ever written in. I can't stick to a diet. I talk in my sleep. I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions. Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time. (..:D) I have jazz in my blood. I wear/wore a toe ring. I have a tattoo. I can't stand at LEAST one person that i work with. I am a caffeine junkie. I cosplay or know what cosplaying is. I have been to over 15 conventions. I will collect anything, and the more nonsesical the better. I'm an artist. I only clean my room when necessary. I like a person of the same sex. (whatdoyoumean!)
THE STABBED:
this is bloody irritating. >: (
♥ 4:26 PM
Tuesday, June 27, 2006 <data:blog.pageTitle/>
i tear myself open, i sew myself shut.
im probably the only one alive enough to blog, hah.
its just that..jubilate III was..?
yeah it was knowing alot more people better, learning how to play hazel's :O!! game, doing (otherppl's)make up, running in heels, pouting at people to feel less nervous, getting lost at the theatre backstage (maze, maze!), and guessing the stupid fuzzy wuzzy whatever.
but then, it was tad disappointing. ...
i dont know. guess it just broke my heart, real bad. it was the worst feeling i swear.
thankyou for the candy and roses, those just couldnt be any sweeter.
on a totally unexpected note, happy birthday erica.
though the only times i (actually!) talk to you, is when you're trying to borrow science notes or something, i..thought it'd be sweet to read something like that.
♥ 11:11 PM
Monday, June 26, 2006 <data:blog.pageTitle/> i think im falling sick.
♥ 5:52 PM
Sunday, June 25, 2006 <data:blog.pageTitle/>
♥ 6:31 PM
Friday, June 23, 2006 <data:blog.pageTitle/>
kill me while i still believe that you were meant for me.
say hello to little miss insecure.
(..i hate wasting my time figuring out whats on your mind.)
♥ 4:04 PM
Thursday, June 22, 2006 <data:blog.pageTitle/>
because you are the way to my heart.
study session today was.. uh semi-productive? (ahha yeah right)
but hey, forget about productive,
i've got the evil twins xuans and mel with me, ..them in their wicked matching red teeshirts.
i know i promised not to pout when this week's too hectic to handle
...
but!!
its less than a week to my reluctant,
'..so long, sweet summer!'
and i still dont get chem, no, not at all.
though i'd say i was decent enough to finish off ze (wqomoefuibw!!) algebra, and finally settling the ultimate search for changjin's b3St fWenN* wOrzXzX!
(LOU YOU FINISH ALRDY ANOT! xD)
but then again, i got my week all chewed up by cca, cca, choralfest, choralfest, last minute towning and too much mugging. (who am i kidding :/)
no im not complaining, alright. im just..planning. okay whatever.
um, cca was pretty okay.
except for the stupid jubilate deo i know it sounds nice and all (or the CD does)
but singing it repeatedly isnt exactly healthy.
and miss spoon looked amusing, almost too, (HHHAHHAAHAHAHAHA)
okay that was tad mean but, heres a little something-
'eh, Ecuador vs Germany tonight, you know.'
okay shes gonna bite me when she gets back, i better run :D
♥ 8:20 PM
Monday, June 19, 2006 <data:blog.pageTitle/>
accidentally in love?
don't say i haven't tried
i used up 2 6mmx20m correction tapes a whole pilot G1 pen, heaps of paper, from rough ones to the back of the question paper,
i spent nights making friends with it. i missed half the Brazil vs Australia match last night, (2-0 btw!! <3) sat on my bed and did algebra till 2 in the morning
and im sorry to say that, algebra is the worst game of mix and match, ever.
♥ 3:16 PM
Sunday, June 18, 2006 <data:blog.pageTitle/>
Because maybe you're gonna be the one who saves me?
i love happy meals! (and flickr) <3
♥ 10:18 AM
Saturday, June 17, 2006 <data:blog.pageTitle/>
I watched the proverbial sunrise Coming up over the pacific
oh fuck. i just ran out of the house and now im stuck in the playground with my notebook, 178 algebra questons and math textbook.
and i want to go for service (and there goes my mum violently objecting) now, tell me about it.
>:(
its not my fault that my house isnt exactly what you call home.
and before lecturing me about teenage angst and the development of today's young adolescents:
PLEASE COME LIVE WITH MY MUM. >:(
nvmind.the playground isnt that bad. they have this nice colourful slide.
or maybe i should go home and start yelling at her.
i dont know.
♥ 5:07 PM
Friday, June 16, 2006 <data:blog.pageTitle/> yeah right.
♥ 4:31 PM
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OMG ITS SO HOT THAT EVERYBODY SHOULD WATCH IT AND PUT IT UNDER THEIR FAVOURITES.
:D!!!
♥ 3:44 PM
Thursday, June 15, 2006 <data:blog.pageTitle/>
so deep that it didnt even bleed.
apparently, (though almost too slowww,) im happy for team czech
topping both categories with two golds is..totally sweet. :D
the audits today were..strangely amusing.
i said i dont know half th all the time, because i really dont know what :/
okay lets just.. not talk about it.
besides,
stop calling me, okay. talk about tired-
it makes two of us alright.
♥ 7:04 PM
Wednesday, June 14, 2006 <data:blog.pageTitle/>
i wish i could drive away.. to the sunset
First things first,
happpy birthday, sermin!
for being there when i cried, for teaching me..stuff or just being there all the time.
heres bucketfuls and lollipops of love from MEEEE <3!
on a totally random note,
I LOVE YOUTUBE.!!! ..and owen. :D
(looks at eeyang)
♥ 7:54 PM
Tuesday, June 13, 2006 <data:blog.pageTitle/> \ and let you fly to the angels says:
yay i've got enough money alr!!
\ and let you fly to the angels says:
i can buy Alien Aisha Ray Gun Stamp alr (:
\ and let you fly to the angels says:
the stamp is very valuable okay!!
\ and let you fly to the angels says:
10, 000 np!!
...hello, lou xD
♥ 4:43 PM
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where'd you go, i miss you so
to:
you know,
it feels like we're stabbing each other, and pretending it doesnt hurt.
NOW I SAY, IT HURTS ALOT OKAY.
p.s i know you're here,
so hello, i love you- :D i know it hurts for you too.
♥ 10:44 AM
Monday, June 12, 2006 <data:blog.pageTitle/>
hey..thanks, thanks for that summer.
at the rate im spending, i should be locking myself at home
and thats just about what im doing >:(
on a happier note, life's been pretty good! <3 (its the holidays, helloo!)
its grilling cheese and bacon in the morning, jumping around 'ITS DA WORLD CUPX WORZX~``' texting the wrong people :O?, catching bits of late night shows, acting emo in the middle of the night, and sending bucketfuls of love :D
with good times like these.. i shouldnt grumble when next week's too hectic to handle.
...(:
p.s DONATIONS ARE EVARRHH SO WELCOME.
..ohh blame it on the good company :D
♥ 2:56 PM
Sunday, June 11, 2006 <data:blog.pageTitle/>
its a beautiful day, dont let it get away.
vasantham central makes me happy, almost too happy :D :D
coming up's the world cup FEVAHH, aye aye aye.
BRAZIL, BRAZIL REALLY. ..because well,
8- Kaka (MD)
HURHURHUR, i just like him alot. (alright sucks to me. xD)
♥ 2:16 PM
Saturday, June 10, 2006 <data:blog.pageTitle/>
Curfew's gonna break my heart, So come and meet me in the dark
xuans and i got out in the morning t town as apparently planned.
SO DAH DAH DAH
ripping all the clothes out, (apparently she needs retro ones for her party?) getting in and out fitting rooms, giggling at weird tops, and pissing all the shop owners off >:D
typical im-with-my-sister-day at bugis.
then, service. something different for a change?
it was about finding out alot stuff i guess. (more than just 'my skirt has four pockets')
damn sweet, really. kept crying.
(phone kept vibrating throughout, and we were like singing hillsongs hello!!
so i uh, i ignored it.)
until i found out that it all came from my mum. and the messages turned out to be a series of threats.
and we were supposed to be home by a nasty timing of uh 5:30.
and the service ends at 7. and i dont live beside a church.
alright, you get it.
so we ended up at our doorstep with my mum displaying her series of intimidating weapons
and us looking especially tiny.
so we just stood there for half-an-hour, deciding whether to run away or not while keeping a safe distance just in case.
then mum came out and..?
for a while- till xuans ran away, literally leaving me alone.
ALONEEEEEE.
..bloody hell.
i had to make up a weird combination of stuff like i went to little india for project or something as absurd.
hell, she actually took it in.. after hitting me, that is.
leaving me with five minutes to bring xuans home (who've happily decided to go to her friend's house for a night) >: ( some sister.
we ended up walking home together planning where to go when we run away from home next time.
this is what happens when you complain that you've got no life
♥ 8:22 PM
Friday, June 09, 2006 <data:blog.pageTitle/>
inside, what a wonderful caricature of intimacy
my mum is very weird. shes makes chocolates and puddings, and gives them to people
and calls those people every just about ten minutes and goes
'have you eaten it!' 'is it nice!'
those people are probably just about biting her head off by now.
went for GIL tday :D (yeaps, i actually went for the lousy GIL alright)
it was..boringweirdly amusing
at least they had like well-nice cheese balls, hur!
plus we did uh family dance- in the middle of the bloody road. because we were too restless, or something.
(talk about the insane :O!)
okay nvmind.
besides that, i need to go shopping, i have too little things ):
so TMR, TMR, yay yay :D :D
YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYEEE.
okay, i told you im a no-lifer. i better go do my chem.
♥ 8:23 PM
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i wanna feel the way you make me feel when im with you
early downpours makes me feel special <3
♥ 1:37 PM
Thursday, June 08, 2006 <data:blog.pageTitle/>
california here we come, right back where we started from
givee it up to.
gaiaonline.com-
miss spoon got me to play it. gosh, the weirdest whatisitanyway ever i swear.
for one, i dont even know whats doing on! strut around, post stuff rip pretty pictures off people and..i dont know, get money?
and for the forums, people actually do thousand questions survey posting the survey questions ONE BY ONE.
to earn money??
call me ignorant but.. i've never seen people flatter surveys so bloody much!! (for what i know, people usually run away from them)
one by one, hello- and thing is HOW WOULD I KNOW IM SUPPOSED TO WORSHIP SURVEYS!!
so being a hell of a noob and all, i posted the whole thing in one post- and happily pm-ed the person, thinking that i'd get money.
come to think of it, im probably on her blacklist and all, :/ and it all becomes my fault, how nice.
oh yeah, talk about weird,
my gaia avatar doesnt smile, I DONT KNOW WHY. she just stands there pouting at me. i buy clothes for her alright; ungrateful ass! its not like im making her stand beside my posts wearing bra and underwear. >:(
therefore, dont play gaia.
or play it and get hooked on t it, like me : O
♥ 6:22 PM
Wednesday, June 07, 2006 <data:blog.pageTitle/> i miss you.
♥ 11:22 PM
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♥ 11:22 PM
Monday, June 05, 2006 <data:blog.pageTitle/>
i write.. mostly on hotel paper.
and i feel very weird.
the team czech is leaving tuesday. its official, official.
and i wont be there. not at the airport not at frankfurt. not at czech itself.
no, not at all.
xuans leaving tmr.
and i wont be there. not camping with her at the bloody airport. (God, my sister does strange stuff)
not pretending to be a tourist. not watching planes fly around at dawn.
no, not at all.
daddy has already left.
and i wont be there. not at shanghai. not doing what his doing anyway.
no, not at all.
but me, im not leaving,
i'll be eating chocolate puddings at two in the morning, staring at reflective surfaces of adjacent escalators, thinking about weird stuff and watching..well, berenstain bears
cheerios, i've got no life.
♥ 11:11 PM
Saturday, June 03, 2006 <data:blog.pageTitle/>
like a saturday night i'll be gone before you knew that i was here
what can i say?
daddy and i totally worship the PC show
the thing is, they are so full of fab stuff. keeps you all hyped up, drooling you dont even have time to complain about the crowds. aye a bloody load of it,
..and well, wires. (WAHHH-YEEERS, WAHHH-YEEERS)
t'was totally hawt :DD :D hell, we spent the whole day there. got a few things, SD cards and all.
& i picked up this gorgeous wonder.
armed with a seagate external drive (BIASED, i call it -stares at daddy ahha)
hur, im one lucky bitch :D
we ended up filling many many lucky draw coupons (daddy's crazy. he filled up every bloody one of those yellow stuff.) as if we're gonna win, really.
got too exhausted t meetup with TC tribe afterwards ):
but then, who says daddys cant shop? :D
♥ 9:33 PM
Friday, June 02, 2006 <data:blog.pageTitle/>
i choose to believe theres a special reason why korean drama side characters seem to..(look like animals?) heh.
♥ 4:45 PM
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no i dont want to be just another (echo, echo)
am back from internals,
lets just say it didnt go quite right, no not at all.
the examiner looked like shes dying to give me a good kick, or something.
you bet she knows i have no fucking idea how to play.
MSSS ELIZAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.!
♥ 12:12 PM
"It's ok if it's not a white christmas, we can sleigh ride on the sand - We'll bundle up in sweatshirts and sweaters just don't you let go of my hand"
Eliza Teo Zhi Ying
16,
CHIJ St Nicholas Girls'
St Andrew's Junior College
