ok, so, screw, hiatus, im back with the worst stuff.
to be honest, these few weeks's hasnt been doing me good. i kept crying, kept feeling i wasn't good enough. insecurites, unnecessary anxieties, being there for everybody else while i was on the verge of breaking down. saying sorry, feeling sorry, being sorry, im sorry, i love you, dont call me.
like. haha.
hokay so geog was terrible. as in, terrible. spell it. i mean, yeah we are young people, soon to govern our country, but who gives a fuck about what nature reserve it is!
the only nature reserve i know in singapore is like, what, bukit timah?
well tell me about the rest, like reclaimed lands and their uses. not your favourite, i promise.
!!!!
the worst part is, its not like i haven't studied. i recall mugging away even when i was running a fever. somehow something in my mind just screams
'hell, i dont deserve this'
so now its nasty zhing >:) and her geog book in the dustbin. friends with ice-cream boxes and correction tape dispensers.
till then meet my new friend, bahh.
i picked her up at 7-11 earlier today (though i wont say lou approved of her very much)
hur we're off to battle chemical formulaes and all, and all.
..& i guess i'll probably never be able to let you go.
♥ 7:06 PM
Saturday, September 09, 2006 <data:blog.pageTitle/>
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happy someday?
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
haha exciting stuff with my favourites after eoys
is what's keeping me sane now, seriously
&for asses (like, ..)who are just dont, get, it,
damn(!!!)
HIATUS
♥ 9:57 AM
Thursday, September 07, 2006 <data:blog.pageTitle/>
'Cause you know the way to my heart
(edited 8:35pm)
!!
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hullo its team zhingmyrajean and our happy chemistry mugging day.
and we..scare ourselves sometimes.
haha these people make me :D
and these pictures are why i need a new phone! >:(
♥ 6:18 PM
Wednesday, September 06, 2006 <data:blog.pageTitle/> its just another one of those ruined days, with me and all my thoughts of you
myra: im watching the channel 8 show. zhing: same here! jean: oh im peeling styrofoam zhingmyrajocelynshinny?: !!!!
:D
♥ 5:28 PM
Tuesday, September 05, 2006 <data:blog.pageTitle/>
On this beautiful night We'll make everything right
You Are 20% Boyish and 80% Girlish
Even if you're not a girl, you're very feminine.
You're in touch with your feelings, and your heart rules you.
A bit of a emotional roller coaster, one moment you're up and the next you're down.
But no matter what, you try to be as cute and perky as possible.
you know, novels like chicken soup for the soul has got me thinking:
if anything, i need to learn more about love, and for everything i've selfishly held on to - i've been the worst.
and i love! conferences with my favourite people <3 (:
♥ 8:15 PM
Monday, September 04, 2006 <data:blog.pageTitle/> haha sometimes i think lou is too cute for her own good
was busy on msn and when i got back, i found this!
\ they gave you the end but not where to start says: yahoo says that steve irwin the crocodile hunter died! : O
\ they gave you the end but not where to start says: okay nvm just got abit shocked at the news
♥ 6:23 PM
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..whichever you prefer
so its our happy zhing and xuan takes changi airport - 7 in the morning.
hahah i think we're abit mad.
but goodness, if you're still thinking that changi airport's some weirded place full of huge guys in their business suits and horribly boring luggages hurrying around -
..screw you.
i think we spent too much time at delifrance sundaes, notebooks and ringfiles to actually go around the lovely place itself. we did drop by bloody jollybean though. (i. hate. jollybean -glares)
and of course, i adore the airpot toilets (:
till then, till then. probably picasa when xuan's back.
♥ 2:59 PM
Sunday, September 03, 2006 <data:blog.pageTitle/>
hi. im thirteen and im afraid of vacuum cleaners.
or just tell me why of all your 'i love you's i never felt quite what you said.
♥ 1:23 PM
Saturday, September 02, 2006 <data:blog.pageTitle/>
States that keep us far apart, turn down the beating of my heart
I've given up on social niceties I threw 'em out when I threw out your keys Along with all your records I can't stand You never even listen to any one of them You're never gonna drag me out again With all the people that were never ever even your friends So here it is - your final lullaby
Of milkmaid days and sunflowers,
(haha weiyi your 'i finished one math chapter today' is seriously freaking me out.)
♥ 5:58 PM
Friday, September 01, 2006 <data:blog.pageTitle/>
In the end thats where i'll be
The worst thing about growing up.. is probably the process of letting go.
♥ 10:08 PM
"It's ok if it's not a white christmas, we can sleigh ride on the sand - We'll bundle up in sweatshirts and sweaters just don't you let go of my hand"
Eliza Teo Zhi Ying
16,
CHIJ St Nicholas Girls'
St Andrew's Junior College
