P.S MANUTD VS CHELSEA 'FTERWARDS!. EXCITING EXCITING.
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♥ 9:42 PM
Friday, November 24, 2006 <data:blog.pageTitle/>
I hope that you're happy
You really deserve it
This'll be best for us both in the end
Maybe it's just me, Couldn't you believe that everything I said and did, wasn't just deceiving And the tear in your eye, and your calm hard face makes me wish that I was never brought into this place
Over at jean's, Couldnt bring myself to mention certain things though. I thought i'd just keep all these to myself for awhile. Had plenty of fun anyway, polly pocket and alll. being there makes a small part of me come alive, And i like her dog! Barks alot though, gets scary.
Cried on the way home. Thankyou for the santa claus lollipops. I love you.
Oh yeah ghost whisperer tonight, hahah lou. Makes everything better, things like these.
♥ 9:03 PM
Thursday, November 23, 2006 <data:blog.pageTitle/>
Maybe your love will catch like fire
As it burns through me
Woke up, cried. Fed the fishes about six times. Cried even more while watching some show about this girl who broke up with this guy because he's poor.
Im thankful for the better texts from both Rah and Jean. Wasn't much of a help to Jean, who really isnt any better off. I have no idea how rah found out. But she seems to have this weird idea that im suicidal or whatever.
Well when i tell people what i feel, i tend to feel guilt. I end up suppressing my feelings, which is actually even worst. Result of running away from things too much? Maybe. You should stop texting me. And calling rah. You're making me feel worst if anything.
I think im such a lousy friend, sometimes i wonder why i have any at all.
♥ 7:13 PM
Wednesday, November 22, 2006 <data:blog.pageTitle/>
It's inevitable,
it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it.
Staying back with Jean, Forum, Specs stand, whatever, Always makes me feel better about everything.
I dont like jolting myself awake on certain mornings recalling my dreams the night before
My dreams are almost always about you And it's as if i haven't already had enough while im awake.
Don't feel like talking about the workshop actually, But honestly, it was really good exposure. Mixing around with the other schools and everything, It was hella fun; yeah.
I like SATB choirs, They sound amazing.
Well i guess im just tired. And doing this all wrong.
♥ 8:45 PM
Tuesday, November 21, 2006 <data:blog.pageTitle/>
To make you mine,
Stay with me tonight.
Happy birthday, my favvvv SA(RAH!) <3!!
Honestly, where am i to find another you!
So for your fourteenth i was thinking this >:D (hurray for construction workers?)
[TEXTED.]
To our days, (and many more to come!) Cheerios. (: I love you.
More about the workshop tomorrow (007!)
P.S Thankyou, myra for the prettiest pencils. And and sam for the florida's natural. And and and delaney for the candy/oreos! that time.
And and and and you for teaching me how to love someone. And how to break a heart.
♥ 9:50 PM
Monday, November 20, 2006 <data:blog.pageTitle/>
Please slow down girl, We're moving way too fast for their world.
Catching the sunrise has this amazing way of making me feel awfully, awfully lucky.
:D
Choir day camp was awesome, Miss Marietta you shoulda been there ):
Plenty plenty plenty,
Its terrible to be blindfolded, and whoever cooked up that goey green ..whatever it is!
Guess its not everyday serene chases you around the primary block with a bloody water gun. Don't think i've seen jean/jiamei/valerie around, jumping from behind doors and every other corner either. Oh and you shoulda seen eunice with the scream! mask.
Tremendous effort made was pretty obvious :D
I, however am awfully ashamed of myself.
Must 've been quite a laugh -
Worst detective ever. And i scream too much.
And andd, a trip over to school also makes it possible for me
to catch a glimpse of everybody else,
Delaney, Minn, Lou, Gets and all the other other wisdom people, :D
"Girl if this is killing you, let it let it go."
Something i interpreted from what someone was almost telling me. Am glad to know that she's definitely (tired but) happier now <3
Come to think of it, we both are.
♥ 7:04 PM
Saturday, November 18, 2006 <data:blog.pageTitle/>
Cause there's a crack in his plastic crown
And his throne of ice is melting
I'm missing your laugh, how did it break? And when did your eyes begin to look fake? I hope you're as happy as your pretending. I'm cuddling close to blankets and sheets, and I am alone, in my defeat. I wish I knew you were safely at home. I'm missing your bed, I never sleep. Avoiding the spots where we'd have to speak, And this bottle of beast is taking me home.
Well as for now I'm gonna hear the saddest songs, and sit alone and wonder,
Pretty much spent the day with dashboard soundtracks. Running away will always be my thing.
Mum's eccentric behavior is driving us all crazy. You know the way she's at it - im supposed to play the damn piano every other hour, fold clothes all morning and watch the news all night.
LISA/GIRLIE PLEASE COME BACK! I hate folding underwear, bloody things.
Am hooked on ghost whisperer thanks to lou hahah.
♥ 10:54 PM
Friday, November 17, 2006 <data:blog.pageTitle/>
You know it's not so easy when you're all alone,
And I wonder if I'm alone in your head.
then so be it.
(edit 9:10)
Happy fourteenth, Gets <3 Its been almost two good years since i found you Hope you like the stuff from Me&Lou ,
♥ 7:03 PM
Thursday, November 16, 2006 <data:blog.pageTitle/> haha i think sabrina&i should stop fidgeting during choir.
♥ 9:29 PM
Wednesday, November 15, 2006 <data:blog.pageTitle/>
Youth's the most unfaithful mistress, Still we forge ahead to miss her.
zhing: i wrapped a pretty present, i wrapped a pretty present! historical historical! rah: grow up.
>: (
I dont like knowing things. Things that im too tired to face up to. Or things that im not supposed to know at least. If could i'd rather run away and keep to myself. Im glad that i make people feel better. Or some at least. But it gets tiring sometimes it feels like im losing myself in midst of trying to solve other people's problems. Well I dont tell people my problems, so look who's blaming the world here. But I guess im childish that way.
I've been going out almost every single day this year-end break. And i really have no, idea, why. I'd just force myself out every damn day for different different things. It scary, its scary.
This November is just so much more.
If I could, then I would,
I'll go wherever you will go.
Way up high, or down low,
I'll go wherever you will go.
p.s but the present is really pretty LORH. !
♥ 7:22 PM
Monday, November 13, 2006 <data:blog.pageTitle/> "Some of us think holding on makes us strong; But sometimes it is letting go."
believe someone texted this to me last evening?
thought i'd say thankyou, i know you care. glad we're not losing each other, & WE NEEEED TOO TALKK.
(:
♥ 9:49 PM
Sunday, November 12, 2006 <data:blog.pageTitle/>
hey thanks, thanks for that summer.
♥ 7:10 PM
Saturday, November 11, 2006 <data:blog.pageTitle/>
I'll remember to love,
You taught me how
Out with LOUUUU yesterday. :D
PERSON: We're searching for good-looking people, LOU&ZHING: (stares) PERSON: I think you are suitable. ZHING: HAHAHAHA. LOU: um. (inches away) PERSON: EH EH dont run away first! ZHING: HAHAHAHA PERSON: Would you please write your name down! (prods disgusting brown board) LOU&ZHING: (attempts to get away) PERSON: WAAIIT! PERSON: Here is my namecard! (offers) ZHING: (takes namecard) PERSON: Okay what's your name LOU: JANE, JANE.
Lou&Zhing runs off.
PERSON: EH MY NAMECARD!
!!
Wisma, P.S, Centrepoint. Topshop, found plenty plenty (: Sat around, Cheap thrills, 7-11s Sushi, Tacoballs, Marks and Spencer, Carrefour, Gelato, Times,
So much, so much.
Meeting again next week to buy MORE stuff? Matching wallet and pencilcase and notebook. Matching bag and ringfile!
<3!
Not much today,
Queued a long (long long) time at the bloody ICA building. Fell asleep on the way home, spent the rest of the day with my favourite sister finishing our lovely boxed sets of VCDS off.
Dont feel like thinking about anything else right now.
''Maybe it's childish and maybe it's wrong But so is your blank stare in lieu of this song"
Kill me while I still believe that you were meant for me.
I have girlfriends i dont deserve.
♥ 12:06 AM
Friday, November 10, 2006 <data:blog.pageTitle/>
When we said we were gonna move to Vegas
I rememeber the look her mother gave us
Been long?
Dont really feel like saying anything, if at all. Chalet was really awesome, dont get me wrong. Don't think i made any effort to make it that way though. In fact, the way i put up a facade was pretty disturbing if you ask me.
Quit texting me, Have been deleting your messages promptly after i recieve them.
Don't waste your time i'll be gone, dear. Sooner than you imagine?
Haha i should seriously lock this up.
'Pots & pans for drums, tissueboxes with rubberbands for guitars, combs for microphones, and singing rubbish songs like I Will Marry You. '
yeah, and on the way through, <3
Out with lou later, yay.
♥ 10:05 AM
Monday, November 06, 2006 <data:blog.pageTitle/> You watch the season pull up its own stakes, And catch the last weekend of the last week. Before the gold and the glamour have been replaced, Another sun soaked season fades away.
I watch you spin around in the highest heels, You are the best one, of the best ones. We all look like we feel.
You have stolen my heart.
I wanna get away, watch the sunrise and forget about everything else.
♥ 10:08 PM
Sunday, November 05, 2006 <data:blog.pageTitle/>
'Because one day I'll leave you a phantom to lead You in the summer to join the Black Parade.'
Bottle tree village date postponed, Next week?
Yul&ChaeGyung can so wait ):
Since its off & had plenty of time to myself, decided to decided to battle our verrry own,
(I know, I know. Last week Yishun this week Bedok week after Sembawang, what is the world coming to?)
Was around with my favourite grandmother, she makes me laugh so much.
Didnt really get anything, (if there was anything at all!?) just damnnnn cheap red&black heels. for like, seven bucks. Seven bucks, seven bucks! Magic, magic!
Hullo, cheapskate. Hahah :D
Think my grandmother spoils me. Haha when i casually said i wanted to play with mushrooms, she bought a 100g of it.
Just to let me have fun. Like poke it or something.
And and, have you ever heard of the butterfly massager?
No i haven't. Until my trip over to Bedok.
I like going around funny places. You'd see so much more than the usuals. I get so preoccupied, it kinda clears my mind of things for a while.
Haha i remember this, was on the mrt on the way there.
spotted this guy&we started laughing really hard. she even took photos.
Saturday, November 04, 2006 <data:blog.pageTitle/>
So go on love,
Leave while there's still hope for escape
Day out with marietta.
(:
We love trolleys and kawaii collectibles.
lou'd love this.
decided to have this with me.
haha am a total suckkerr for pretty gadgets.
:D?
Met several of them around. Rather disturbing, really
Therefore we decided to be equally so.
'HULLO. Wth are you doing up there?' 'HULLO. Do you like your job?' 'HULLO. I'VE GOT SHADES, YOU'VE GOT SHADES WE'RE LIKE..BEST FRIENDS!' 'HULLO. Where's the mrt station?' 'HULLO. Where's the toilet?'
You get the drift.
Found this playground thing around.
Missed it before. Exciting exciting!
'You're not moving!'
'I am!'
'You're not!'
'I AM!'
denial denial!
Got on most of the stuff.
Kids are easy to intimidate
>:D!
Lovely day.
Like an excuse to get away.
Not much of us 'cause i dont really like taking photos
she doesnt really like taking photos either.
So we end up having no photos at all.
HAH.
For a little something,
Hahah. Didnt do anything to the photo, really!
You kill me, you always know the perfect thing to say
♥ 8:06 PM
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It's playing on repeat, Just like when we would meet
:D!
Think cleon told me about this sometime ago? Was just watching it with xuans. Pretty good for laughs on nights like these.
♥ 12:23 AM
Friday, November 03, 2006 <data:blog.pageTitle/>
Don't leave baby, Now that's what I meant to say.
Love, like you've never been hurt before.
Believe i got it from a korean drama or another? Thought it'd be something worth thinking through,
I'm 99 for a moment Dying for just another moment And I'm just dreaming Counting the ways to where you are
<3
♥ 6:49 PM
Wednesday, November 01, 2006 <data:blog.pageTitle/>
Middle of the night and it's getting so hard to breathe. You can't sleep, can't think, can't hardly dream.
(edit: 12:34pm) !! for zhing ze domestic >:D (/edit)
Missed rah (the strange) today, In turn, she texted me.
Alot, i guess.
Its what she's been trying to tell me all along. Haha its so obvious. I get it, i can read. Times like these i dont even know what to say. It feels like i've never tried to let go what i've been painfully holding on to. Killing myself from inside out; I dont, i dont know how long this is gonna be. To be honest, a small part of me secetly hopes to take pain in as what it was ever meant to be. That way i'd be okay, i know.
Rah you've been the sweetest. Through it all. I probably never really told you anything, or if i've ever told anyone anything at all. But you're okay, you dont mind. You'd make me feel better. I love you (:
For now, i know just what to do.
Im gonna go for CCA tmr, work a hell for S3; Fill my Friday, Saturday out with Marietta(get well soon!), Piano/Bottle tree Village Date on Sunday, Class Chalet next week, CCA, Friday out with Lou, Probably out with Cleon 'round next week, (treat treat!) Do my sister's blogskin, Miscible jamming.
If all of the things that you thought you would be, Pass you by. We'll find what we need in our lives.
♥ 11:15 PM
"It's ok if it's not a white christmas, we can sleigh ride on the sand - We'll bundle up in sweatshirts and sweaters just don't you let go of my hand"
Eliza Teo Zhi Ying
16,
CHIJ St Nicholas Girls'
St Andrew's Junior College
