Monday, January 29, 2007
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ni yao wo shuo duo nan kan
wo gen ben bu xiang fen kai
wei shen me hai yao wo yong wei xiao lai dai guo?
♥ 9:20 PM
Sunday, January 28, 2007
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So far away
I wish you were here
Before it's too late
this could all disappear.Choral workshop on friday was greatt.
Yep. Foodie adventures team zhingjean around AMK.
Times like these.
Debate.
Hate it when things get all competitive.
It just makes everybody more screwed up
(than they already are)
Old Chang Kee with Lijia was :) anyway.
Our team will win tomorrow lorh!
We're like, you know. Normal.
Have stopped signing into msn (okay maybe not!)
stopped reading certain blogs,
replying to certain texts,
answering to certain phonecalls.
Basically pretend pretend i don't know anything.
(Haha, yeah right)
Not exactly the best way to get through this.
But it's the best i can think of
till i ________________.
Ignorance is bliss.
I don't have that kinda strength to deal with my worst.
Not anymore.
History for now.
A suffocating lot to memorise i swear.
Some days i just wanna quit.
I might need you to hold me tonight
I might need you to say it's alright
)':
♥ 1:52 AM
Thursday, January 25, 2007
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Is is true when we die
we go up to the sky?Fell ill.
These days its like being myself isn't that all good enough.
I miss the way things used to be.
One day we'll be okay.
This will all be over.
I'll be strong.
And we'll find a way somehow
)':Dreamnt that i was alone in class.
Saw many many people.
Then its just. Everybody. Kinda. Walked past the classroom.
As in, they saw me. And they just. Walked past.
Its like i've lost every single one of them.
Couldnt have felt more alone.
Woke up. Cried. Yeah.
Okay so how do you conclude this all, huh?
YOU? (ARE. THINKING. TOO. MUCH)
ChoralSeaweed workshops and all,
Mister you make me feel 398287 times better.
To dream that you are crying, signifies a release of negative emotions that is more likely caused by some waking situation rather than the events of the dream itself. Your dream is a way to regain some emotional balance and a way to safely let out your fears and frustrations. In our daily lives, we tend to ignore, deny, or repress our feelings. But in our dream state, our defense mechanisms are no longer on guard and thus allow for the release of such emotions.
To wake up crying, represents some suppressed hurt or previous trauma that is coming up to the surface. You can no longer suppress these emotions. They need to be dealt with head on. P.S Dearest, your mp3 is with bryan.
hehhehh. (OMG SLOW SLOW)
Don't worry, it'll find its way back by monday
filled with exciting songs such as
..polly put the kettle on?
I love you :)
♥ 4:19 PM
Saturday, January 20, 2007
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Every drawing that i drew
was never as cute as youKiller of a week.
I don't know who to trust, what to take in,
who to believe in, what to do, what to say,
how to react .. not anymore.
Maybe i think too much.
Because i do know everything i believed in is true.
Despite everything i guess.
With everything, SYF, crazy amounts of work
(i swear our teachers have gone mad)
workshops, full-day seminars.
CCA, school and all that overwhelming nonsense.
I don't know how to do this anymore.
I really don't.
Stayed up till two to watch spirited away last night.
It just, touches my heart. That. Way.
And when i looked out at dawn,
the skies were in that special shade of magneta.
I couldnt find the three stars
that meant those three words.
Some days i get really worried over ROMEO ):
esp esp when she tells me she wants to die.
(wo ai ni ni she wo de romeo,
wo yuan yi bian cheng ni de zhu ying tai)
♥ 7:42 PM
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
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I'll be yours my dear.
And I'll belong to you...
if you'll just let me through.Am officially ordered by the fellow members of HUNGRYCARz
"to stop crying over someone who isn't ever gonna cry over me."
Haha rah never ceases to amaze me with her !! ideas.
"When you feel like crying, think about happy things.
Happy things include manchester united
and future honeymoon plans"
&
"Wahlao stop crying lah, you girl ah you!"
"..yah i girl what"
"oh..yah horh"
"You know when two people get close, its like the two opposite sides of a magnet. They'd attract. But one day if just one piece of the magnet decides to turn it's back towards the other piece of magnet, the two pieces of magnet would have their like poles facing each other. They will repel no matter how hard that other piece of magnet tries. Even if it manages to turn itself around eventually, that other piece will probably follow and do the same. If this continues both magnets will end up hurt and tired in the end."
Mister, your absurd theories sure got me thinking.
It's this much love i've been recieving these days.
Im starting to think if im actually worth all that.
Feels terrible when it starts to rain.
I need to learn how to love.
Even when im replaced by someone else.
Or, i guess, forgotten.
I guess this is what they call
Unconditional Love.
♥ 6:33 PM
Monday, January 15, 2007
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And I would gladly hit the road
get up and go if I knew
That someday it would lead me back to you
zhing: am i very easy to replace?
rah: ..i am going to st nicks tomorrow.
zhing: hahah.
su-per-sede To be set aside; to force out of use as inferior
To supersede is to replace one person or thing
by another held to be more valuable or useful, or less antiquated.
Synonyms: abandon, annul, desert, discard, displace, forsake, oust, outmode, outplace, overrule, reject, remove, replace, repudiate, set aside, succeed, supplant, supplement, suspend, take over, usurp
Everything to me?
Love is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope,
and to endure whatever comes
♥ 4:23 PM
Friday, January 12, 2007
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Except when you signed it
"I will love you always and forever."A week and just a bit into school'07,
now everybody thinks im an emo kid.
Like, well done zhiying. You've outdone yourself.
Thhhe week's been terrible.
Haha i think i cried every single day
Awful thanks to so many
who came along with much love -
but let's just, not talk about it.
Unlocked
The Ariel last night.
I know, barely lasted for seven days.
Then again, im kinda glad i did.
"Tell me just what has it ever meant?"
"Everything to me."Its funny how it'll rain and i'll miss you like crazy.
I love you.
♥ 7:46 PM
Saturday, January 06, 2007
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