As I hear the words you're saying tonight, I'm falling for them every single time
Open house was such a waste of everybody's time.
♥ 4:48 PM
Friday, June 29, 2007 <data:blog.pageTitle/>
If all of the things that you thought you would be, pass you by. We'll find what we need in our lives.
Its been an exhausting week. I can really see how the whole of term three is going to be like for me now. All my weekend plans are gone. SGH, airport studying. Thanks man really do appreciate this. Sometimes i wonder what im doing and why im letting my life lead me where it wants me to go.
Lessons are quite idontfeellikelisteningtowhatyouhavetosay-ish everyday. Basically waiteng and i are just taking turns to fall asleep, like see who sleep the most in class or something. At the rate things are going, i think im going to fail everything this term and start attending remedial everday or something.
I took the whole welfare file home to redo. Now its freaking nice and im happy with it yay :D Im so proud of my lower-charge abigail for sorting things out/standing up for me on thursday. I'm like wlkefnweifn compared to her in terms of courage. I guess we're all still getting used to the new responsibilities, which is therefore an extremely appropriate and excellent excuse to saying that nobody should be blamed for any unintentional mistakes made. Welfare=still the best :)
I've been feeling bad for not liking gardenia bread. Or any other kind of bread, for that matter haha.
♥ 8:28 PM
Saturday, June 23, 2007 <data:blog.pageTitle/> When grey skies turn blue, when dreams do come true
Would you be the way that i remember you?
)':
♥ 11:02 PM
Friday, June 22, 2007 <data:blog.pageTitle/>
I never believed in love but you left me convinced
Okay HAHAHAH I just opened an email from someone i dont know. Or i thought i didnt know. OH MY GOODNESSSS SHE KNOWS MY NAME. And hell do i know her! To think i've been deleting every single one of her emails. I mean, MYRA LAI SINCE WHEN WERE YOU FREAKING "Lisa Sloveicogh"! HAHAHAHAH Damn funny. This is why i never recieve all your emails.
KAY BYE. My sister is going to sleep i dont want to be alone. (YEAH THE EMILY ROSE THING I STILL RMB, LOU)
And someone's operation was a success :)
♥ 2:20 AM
Wednesday, June 20, 2007 <data:blog.pageTitle/>
I'll be there till the stars don't shine Till the heavens burst And the words don't rhyme
List 10 things you want to say to someone but you know you never will.
- Don't say who they are or who you're referring to. - Disable comments. - Never discuss it again.
1. I wish i could tell you just how important you are to me.
2. You're my friend, you're good, you're lovely. But sometimes, just sometimes, i find myself afraid of who you really are. I want to help you, but i really dont want to be your friend.
3. I want to get to know you better. I want you to know that im not who you think i am.
4. My dear you're pretty the way you are. Why the eyeshadow and mascara?
5. I like you, you're great and you make me laugh. But i cant help but to be extremely wary when im around you. I dont quite know how to explain this, but what you think matters alot to me. And im afraid im just not good enough for you.
6. You make me feel as though you know me more than i know myself.
7. I dont think i've ever talked to you but i really dont like you. And as much as im reluctant to admit this, its not your fault. I wish i've gotten the chance to know you better before things went this way.
8. For about twenty nine seconds of my entire life, i seriously considered marrying you. Im glad you didnt ask.
9. I wish i meant lesser to you. I wasnt really doing work when you called. I was watching OC.
10. What, is wrong with you.
P.S Did i mention that all sports CCAs are evil? Wei-en dislocated his knee-cap AGAIN. Operation ): I guess i'll have to go down to SGH alone this friday. Get well soon? ):
♥ 12:23 AM
Monday, June 18, 2007 <data:blog.pageTitle/>
So what if I say I dont like the games we play?
Father's day 07 was ironic, but undeniably enjoyable in a way that is difficult to explain. Chocolate brownie fudge cake with m&ms?? at night wasnt exactly the prettiest thing, but definitely edible and diabetes-sweet enough.
Happy father's day, daddy You used to/will always be my hero :)
Haha i spent last night and the whole of this morning/afternoon watching something Abby introduced. Yeah haha i stayed up till like four dont tell my mum. Addictive, addictive! Im a total suckerrr for shows with happy endings.
On a more fucked up note, the days to the end of summer break are almost..shocking. Please ask me to do my homework because im not quite done with it yet. By not quite, i mean i havent logged on asknlearn, nor do i know exactly how much work is secretly hidden on the web. Sickening sickening ):
Im not ready for school, not ready to see the people i dont want to see, not ready to meet the teachers and say "hi i've forgotten everything you've taught me because i didnt bother to revise im sorry" Not ready to start copying non-stop during lit lessons, not ready to confuse myself with continuous amath and problems i wouldnt be facing if i cared less.
IM NOT READY. Not quite, not really, not at all.
):
School starts with an S for a reason. S is for stupid, sickening and strange ):
You know, i found out something about myself this summer. That is i keep a hell lot to myself. I have like sixty billion secrets, which, according to bryan, scares the hell out of everyone around me because i end up crying quite alot. Well im sorry I cant help it. Its my way of protecting myself. I cant afford to get hurt. Well at least, not anymore.
Or should you have realized i stopped blogging certain important things in my life on this blog already?
When he holds you close, when he pulls you near When he says the words you’ve been needing to hear I’ll wish I was him ‘cause those words are mine To say to you till the end of time Yeah, I will love you baby, always And I’ll be there forever and a day, always
This song is just so sweet.
♥ 3:12 PM
Saturday, June 16, 2007 <data:blog.pageTitle/>
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts in your heart is the only way for destiny
I DONT EVEN GO AROUND STEALING OTHER PEOPLE'S LOVE, WHY IS IT THAT EVERYBODY HAS TO BE SO INTERESTED IN MINE ITS JUST SO UNFAIR DAMNIT! YOU THIEF YOUU ): ): ):
I intended to go the General Hospital today but its raining freaking heavily ): Seafood tonight with everybody else should be pretty good.
I dont know what to say about Farewell. It was tiring, but good. I didnt cry, and i dont think anybody else did. But when i got home and read all the letters, it wasn't quite okay :'/
I love Comm 07/08, like alot alot <3 Two ponytails or not, im glad things went okay in the end.
Pictures, all random shots because there wasnt enough time. (actually, its more of the fact that i dont like to take pictures HAHA :D)
This is Jiayi. We were together all through farewell preparations and shes just super cute. Dont ask me what shes doing hahah.
Abby, A2 and extremely encouraging esp through SYF. But she doesnt like my eyecandy #11, whatever pls ):
My favourite ACBC couple (: Myra EXTRA! :D
TeamJean. Didnt talk to her much on that day, games comm aye?
Sec fours.
FOOD COMM.
Adela is so funny she ordered too much food in the end we had to give boxes away to random people as early christmas presents and auction the bottles of sprite and mirinda away.
PRESENTS COMM
I dont know how they shrank us till we're left with like three people ): There werent enough comm members and apparently other comms seem to think we didnt need much people (which just proves them wrong i had to carry one horse, two huge ikea bags, a bulletin board and twenty over hangers to school thanks man)
WE'RE GOOD ANYWAY. BEST COMM IN MY OPINION. (except for the broken glass incident which will remain as a secret)
Me: I WANT TO BE IN PRESENTS COMM NEXT YEAR. Myra: You wont be in any comm next year
Oh yah. Well unless i get retained. ):
Jean and i were supposed to be emo. Which so did not work out for obvious reasons. We had great fun with the markers though. Wrote EMOXSTUFFX like 'FACADE' and 'PAIN' all over ourselves quite funny actually :D
Friday night dinner with Geri, Eunice, Myra and Abby was good. All of them left me out of their minestrone soup sharing because i stole too much from Geri !
And this was last year
just the way everybody else still remembers.
If they could love like you and me, Imagine how this world could be.
♥ 12:23 PM
Thursday, June 14, 2007 <data:blog.pageTitle/>
Makes you feel warmer when you're trying to remember What you heard She likes to leave you hanging on her word
Happy birthday to Minn and Wei-en
One to help me out of SGH/Heritage Museums/Storerooms, another to be with me through it all.
I am grateful.
Today was good. I need to stop buying things. (:
I felt like a failure for the whole week. Kept worrying about things and i wish i wasnt the only one who cared cause it would have made things about sixty two thousand times easier. Haha now im just quite angry with everyone maybe you should just stay away from me for awhile since all you're concerned about is yourself and somebody else.
Farewell's tomorrow. I have so many things to carry to school dont ask me how im supposed to get to school tomorrow huh 'cause i dont know either. I love comm! (: Though plenty of things are___________ and i think ________________. But i guess that cant be helped yeah? Heard alot of different things from different people it gets confusing sometimes i dont know who im supposed to tell what to make things right without sounding like a total bitch.
I dont know la harh, ):
I think im running a fever. My head hurts. I cant believe i just went online for forty six minutes and now im awfully upset/angry.
To MY ONE AND ONLY: I love you so very much.
P.S Wei-en did you watch tooth and claw at SGH? :D
♥ 8:19 PM
Tuesday, June 12, 2007 <data:blog.pageTitle/>
SWEET, YOU'RE NOT MY NUMBER ONE. YOU ARE MY ONLY ONE.
Myra lai says im not supposed to blog anything about today because its a secret.
WELL THATS BECAUSE SHE WOKE ME UP AT WEE HOURS OF THE MORNING TO MEET HER AND GO WALK AROUND AND WAIT FOR THE SHOPS TO OPEN.
!!!!
Hahah okay it wasnt that bad. We finished extra early with plenty of time to sit around and watch tom&jerry (i love tom&jerry yay) Couldnt find any masks at all i might have to like make my own or something, so much for masquerade huh huh :/ We bought BOB though. (Which myra insisted on bringing home despite her OBVIOUS TRANSPORTATION DIFFICULTIES hahah) But i can't tell you its colour because its supposed to be a secret (:
You know those turning machines that come in rows? Like you throw in one dollar coins and you get a toy or something. GOD I SWEAR THOSE ARE SUCH EVIL, ADDICTIVE THINGS!! I wasted so many one dollar coins on it and got all sorts of strange things except for the one i want. I EVEN GOT TWO EEYORES HELLO I DONT EVEN LIKE EEYORE! ): ): ):
Im so annoyed >:(
Day was good in general. Welfare chair loves being out with the President very much she makes me laugh and her face is all over the bank notes :D Haha no la i love you alot didnt mean to blame all sorts of stuff on you that has no link whatsoever. Actually, I just like to whine alot in general (:
Oh yeah and my mp3 has obviously taken my summer mania much too seriously. Decided to challenge itself to a 4x100 freestyle relay along with my waterbottle and piano pieces. Due to my lack of foresight, i most unfortunately did not sign it up for any swimming lessons of a sort. It therefore drowned, and died. ):
No it didnt leave any will so the earphones are still mine.
I dont want this summer break to ever end. I dont want to think about things im not supposed to be thinking of. . Sometimes i wonder why im doing so much and is it even worth it.
You're the one i think about each day. )':
♥ 10:11 PM
Saturday, June 09, 2007 <data:blog.pageTitle/>
Okay its not like i have anything against maple story (actually i do, its a stupid game really) nor do i find broken relationships/lost love particularly amusing or something
..BUT I THINK THIS IS REALLY FUNNY DAMNIT HAHA.
♥ 10:35 AM
<data:blog.pageTitle/> i changed the font because ____ says the trebuchet ms looks like ants ):
♥ 10:14 AM
Friday, June 08, 2007 <data:blog.pageTitle/>
Is it me you dont see? Just be honest with me.
(edit 08:16) RAH SAYS I WRITE THINGS THAT SCARE HER. SO, YEAH. (and i miss her so much ): come home soon pls.)
By the way, never ever read Dean Koontz books. Unless you are Bryan. God i swear that guy's a psycho. He can make you feel utterly shocked and disgusted while still wanting to continue reading his book at the same time. Nightmare, honestly.
I dont feel like replying to all my messages. Its been a really weird day.
♥ 7:17 PM
Thursday, June 07, 2007 <data:blog.pageTitle/>
I'm trying real hard, hard not to care But I miss you my dear won't you come back
I've been feeling highly irritable these days, not going to elaborate any further, not elaborating any further >:/ >:/
The visit to KK hospital yesterday was last minute, but satisfying in every way. I think i've found my homeland at ward 55 whereby there are people who actually appreciate happy things like disney priness pencilboxes and winnie the pooh colouring page..despite the age gap.
And i really miss having colouring sheets as homework you know ):
STAR-tanning at night was (:
From my sister and i, we wish our eyecandy(s) are less confusing and easier to deal with in general ): ):
Comm 07/08 announced today. Im freaking happy five hundred sixty thousand and more for everybody.
Everything else tomorrow (:
p.s PRESIDENT PRESIDENT haha! Ikea on Monday please dont forget :) We need to bring our own plastic bags !
I just want you to know that i've been fighting to let you go.
♥ 6:21 PM
Tuesday, June 05, 2007 <data:blog.pageTitle/>
I wanna believe in everything that you say 'Cause it sounds so good
Identity crisis/uniform exchange at the general hospital today. Dealt with more boxes of medicine than i have in my entire life. It got so bad my fingers were bleeding. And they still hurt now ):
(:
♥ 10:28 PM
Friday, June 01, 2007 <data:blog.pageTitle/>
I'll take the words you gave and send them back to you
Earlier on this morning went to TTSH to deliver my application form, then went over to SGH. First day at SGH was tiring, but really good. I like SGH! (: Okay apart from the fact that the hospital itself is freaking big. Or that it looks like a relatively old mrt station. Seriously the people there are just so incredibly nice you'd wonder why.
Met Wei-en for the first time and we took care of the friends of SGH stall for awhile. Talked to this other volunteer shes awfully nice to me. Haha one day when i retire like her i'll volunteer there again instead of sitting at home and play mahjong or something.
Then moved on to paste post-its on singapore arts festival booklets in the storeroom for two hours. Yeah thats right i wrote 'Baa! 13th June, 7pm @ SGH' for two hundred times :/ Talked to Wei-en quite alot because it was just boring. He's about same age as me.
"First time doing CIP?" "Huh i didnt even know can get CIP hours one" "Then why are you here?" "I just wanted to volunteer" "You've got a screw loose or something?
"Im only coming once a week i think" "..i see a glimmer of hope in you" "But i think im coming every week even when sch term starts" "Now i can only see a spark"
Damn funny :D
Lunched with Wei-en before going back there again. We were given like alot of money to run around Singapore to collect things. All i can say is i like cabbing especially when someone else is paying haha. Collected tickets from mint museum of toys, bought some DVD then got kinda lost. Its Bras Besah for goodness sake do i look like i go to Bras Besah very often. Walked allllllll the way from Liang Seah street to National Heritage Board because there was traffic jam and all the cabs refused to fetch us thanks man >:/
Didn't really complain about the distance cause Wei-en didnt complain either. He carried more stuff than me, apparently he's ankle or knee or something was dislocated and has yet to recover (i swear all sports CCAs are evil i'll make my son join chess club next time)
By the time we got back was about five or six. And then,
... She wants a free t-shirt. Yeah! (:
..he can read my mind! And he told everybody i collect rubbish which is so not true. What's wrong with free t-shirts anyway!! >:( I bet everybody secretly wants free t-shirts.
Wei-en walked me out to one of the exits cause SGH has about six billion exits and it gets increasingly confusing. And im the one who's always lost.
Fell right asleep after dinner. It's been a long, long day.
&Before i go, this was wednesday back at school
xoxo (:
♥ 10:34 PM
"It's ok if it's not a white christmas, we can sleigh ride on the sand - We'll bundle up in sweatshirts and sweaters just don't you let go of my hand"
Eliza Teo Zhi Ying
16,
CHIJ St Nicholas Girls'
St Andrew's Junior College
