Friday, July 27, 2007
<data:blog.pageTitle/>
If you fall i will catch you
I'll be waiting,
Time after time
A beautiful revolution
Its been a really weird week.
I dont quite listen in class.
I miss Vwork.
Im actually quite thankful that its friday, i barely slept four hours every day of this week. The funny thing is, when it gets past two am i become more wide awake than ever. Then it's like, forget about sleeping! There's Muttons to Midnight! And here it goes again.
Piano lesson today sucked, as usual. I was rushing through my pieces and i hate scales anyway. Tried the capsule machine for abit of luck and guess what? I got a cinderella. Adds on to my collection of belle figurine substitutes i suppose. I've got jasmine and ariel so far.
I almost got run down on my way home. Twice.
I imagined how it felt like to be knocked down and ran over.
Then it went through my mind all over again.
It felt kinda weird - not scary, just weird.
To be dying, and on the verge of losing it all.
Im supposed to meet somebody at j8 tomorrow.
The thing is, i dont even remember how she looks like.
Well theres always bingo.
Hopefully the three hundred and forty gets to the right person.
Sometimes i think i was just a mistake from the start.
You say, go slow.
I fall behind.
♥ 4:42 PM
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
<data:blog.pageTitle/>
Maybe if I took a little time to talk
then she'd heal a little if she wants to.
She can run but let's teach her how to walk away now,If i never tell you'll never know how much i love you. But it is going to stay that way because i know you well enough. Well enough to know that i'll never mean as much to you just as much as you mean to me.
I've been feeling pretty down lately, its like im becoming less and less like myself these days. Had moodswings all through and by the end of the day i was wishing everybody would just leave me alone haha. I think the only lesson i paid attention to in class today was math and probably abit of physics. And i was freaking colouring in the middle of chinese. Its not like i have poor attitude or whatever its just.. Okay, i dont know.
I love my tablepartner! <3 She makes me a whole lot happier everyday :) :)
Four of us bought the tomyum biscuit stick thing from the canteen today. And now i've got a funny monster tattoo on my left hand :D
Monday was ?
Mass in the morning. They said something like: "Trust God to fulfil your emotional, spiritual and physical needs' I think i wanted to cry.
Stayed back in class to study during recess. Lessons were okay. I cant remember much. Studying with ethel and shujie afterschool at the library made me think a whole lot. I dont like it when they say people come and go. I dont like it when love fails and people change.
Oh and we saw this guy beating up another guy. Im glad i dont understand hokkien. The scene itself was frightening enough without having to understand what on earth he was yelling about.
Ethel got me hooked on crazy mary (like, by fm static hahha)
I've been listening to it over and over again since yesterday night.
Piano afterwards. I dont know what to think.
"What if you are?"
♥ 2:53 PM
Saturday, July 21, 2007
<data:blog.pageTitle/>
One thought of you is all it takes
to leave the rest of the world behind
Being obsessed potter fans as usual, we got there early in the morning close to seven to get the deathly hallows despite the fact that we've already, um (...)
Hahah no we didnt pre-order. We had our doubts and would rather be there personally to get the actual book. I mean, what if they decide to deliver the book two weeks later or something!
Other than that, I love the book! No i cant say its my favourite because rah says that i claim each new potter book that comes out to be my favourite and that i ought to just shut up. BUT STILL!!! IT REALLY IS MY FAVOURITE!
I cried quite alot. Chapter thirty three was omg )': It was even worst than when Sirus and Dumbledore died in book five and six respectively.
And lastly, im sorry for the spoilers haha. But this just shows that i wasnt having hallucinations nor did i suffer from lack of sleeep! I was telling the truth! >:/
Friday was pretty fucked up by the way. Was late for piano because i couldnt find sabbles afterschool. Then i couldnt play scales at all its days to my exam and i was close to crying. Got home hungry to realize that its going to be one hell of a week and i wouldnt have time to practice piano at all unless i dont intend to sleep. I feel incapable.
Well at least im watching the order of phoenix again this sunday. Cheers things up a little i suppose.
♥ 8:24 AM
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
<data:blog.pageTitle/>
Its something that i cant quite explain.
Im so in love with you..
you'll never take that way.Something pretty incredible just happened to the both of us. The details are highly confusing and up to this point of time, insignificant for now. All i can say is, there wont be one potter appearing this time. There would be like, seven. With help from a certain potion.
I guess its up to you (and me, actually) to find out this saturday whether or not im speaking the truth right now.
♥ 7:16 PM
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
<data:blog.pageTitle/>
It seems the miles are getting longer,
the closer I get to you.Wei-en just messaged.
Midweek Vwork Should be Good.
:)
Stayed back till quite late with Sabbles and Jean. It felt good. We bitched alot, did cruel? imitations of people we were annoyed with and decided that some people really look like animals.
The walk to the Avenue two gate became..
the walk to the canteen, to the classroom block then to the forum.
The security guard had to chase us out in the end.
Then when we were at the Ave 2 Bus stop, there was this advertisement about pads which said something like
"No ordinary sanitary pad - Silk Nano Silver Technology"
Sabbles went: "Pad then say pad la! Say until like ipod like that!
Damn funny :D
And guess what? I studied for physics in the end.
Why?
Hello love, says:MUST STUDY PRINCESS, GO AND STUDY!
"Your love has always been enough for me" says:okay okay!
"Your love has always been enough for me" says:hahha
Hello love, says:yes ( :
Hello love, says:MUST BELIEVE IN YOURSELF
Hello love, says:GO PRINCESS!
(:
♥ 8:52 PM
Monday, July 16, 2007
<data:blog.pageTitle/>
I'm going to the place where love
And feeling good don't ever cost a thing.
And the pain you feel's a different kind of pain'Happy birthday jas.
I think you're very sweet.
:)
Today was okay. I think i had moodswings during recess and all the classes after that. Listening comprehension was okay. I fell asleep ten minutes before the actual broadcast begun because we werent allowed to talk or turn our heads in any direction while they played like classical music.
Physics test tomorrow and im not studying nor do i intend to. I dont even know what has gotten into me.
Sometimes i just stop running. And wonder what im going after. Or why im trying my best for so many things when none of them is ever going to lead me back to you. Im starting to realize i pass each day almost without any purpose or direction. I dont do the things i want. And i hardly have time to lead the life i want to lead because most of the time im too preoccupied trying to live the life im supposed to lead. Well its not fair isnt it everybody has 24 hours each day why does mine have to be dedicated to pretending to be happy all the time and going an extra mile even for things i never bargained for in the first place.
Ha and guess what im going to stop volunteer work till like my piano exam is over WHATEVER i dont even like the stupid piano ):
I need you to know what im running out of excuses to believe that you're still here with me.
And i hope you're as happy as you're pretending.
♥ 5:58 PM
Sunday, July 15, 2007
<data:blog.pageTitle/>
I like you, you like me
So let's lock all the doors
there's nothing outside we need to see
'Cause we've got love"eBay.com, an online auction and shopping website where people and businesses buy and sell goods and services worldwide." -Wikipedia.
Haha yeah right, i think its more like:
"eBay.com, just like ecstacy"I've been checking eBay about every five seconds since..
OH GOD PLEASE DO NOT LET ANYBODY OUTBID ME!!!!
)':
To everybody else, listen to jimmy eat world.
Somehow, I think we all need this:
Hey, don't write yourself off yet
It's only in your head
You feel left out or looked down on
Just try your best, try everything you can
And don't you worry what they tell themselves
When you're away
It just takes some time, little girl
You're in the middle of the ride
Everything, everything will be just fine
Everything, everything will be all right, all right
Hey, you know they're all the same
You know you're doing better on your own
So don't buy in, live right now
Yeah, just be yourself
It doesn't matter if that's good enough for someone else
♥ 1:30 PM
Friday, July 13, 2007
<data:blog.pageTitle/>
Feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
You're better off without meFINALLY.
!
Pretty good in my opinion.
I like Luna lovegood!
I am going to watch it again
(AND AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN)
:)
I want to buy purple FBTs :D
♥ 9:21 PM
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
<data:blog.pageTitle/>
I'll be true, I'll be useful
I'll be cavalier, I'll be yours my dear.
And I'll belong to you.Hello hello.
I fell sick yesterday and i had to sit with many many sick people while waiting at the polyclinic to get my medicine and all ):
YAH ALOT ALOTTT OLD PEOPLE OMG ):
I mean, seriously do they wake up at like 3am to wait for the polyclinc to open or something? Its like i reached there at around ten plus (which is considered relatively early unless you are myra) and i was like the seven thousandth plus plus patient omg. The other seven thousand in front of me must be crazy.
And when i messaged waiteng:
"But polyclinic very boring. Queue damn long and have to sit with alot of sick old people. I dont like to sit with old people!"She replied
"You don't like sitting with old people, you think old people like sitting with you ah! hahahah"OMGG! I was so annoyed i didnt even know what to reply hahah.
Today was just..bad.
Classes became totally ewiwhfeefiw esp after waiteng left ): ):
I hope you didnt 马路 yourself today. Princess missed you too.
):
Astro-wonder wasnt free to walk out with me afterschool ): But im really thankful that the day ended early anyway. I went home, took medicine and fell asleep straight away. So i must start studying for emath now.
I saw a pretty rainbow today, i want to know what it means. Because so far, it hasnt been good. Not at all ):
I look forward to friday.
Happy birthday Romeo.
(:
♥ 6:10 PM
Sunday, July 08, 2007
<data:blog.pageTitle/>
If i can't have you the way I want
then this needs to be over
So move on and don't look back, Studying with Romeo today :)
We are going to be the most intellectual couple in the history of shakespearean romances. YAH REALLY.
Studying session got bit bitchy, found out alot of things from her which kinda, sorta ruined my day but thats okay. It went great all the same. AND SHE SHOULD STOP EATING TOMATO SAUCE. I think she ate like 11 packets or something omgx damn gross.
Saturday was spent at the hospital :)
The volunteer office wasnt open so i just kinda walked around and did abit of work. I love everything at SGH, it makes me want to be a doctor. (Quote text from rah: HAHAHAHAAHAH. You, doctor? HAHAHAHAHAHAH DONT HARM INNOCENT LIVES. I swear im never telling her anything anymore, stupid girll >:/ Besides its just a thought. Im too stupid to be a doctor anyway.)
Friday night was ghost whisperer while messaging lou.
I love watching tv like that it makes me feel as though someone else is watching with me. Well it went well till someone called and my mum decided that it was a perfect time to yell at me loudly and tell me that she deserves a better daughter or something along that line. (yah okay he heard everything through the phone how humiliating) I thought i would have gotten used to things like that by now but i guess not. Theres a reason why my sister comes home so late every night and leaves each day before my mum returns.
Oh yeah and I think the whole LiveEarth thing is just bloody nonsense. Whatever, its not like your singing is going to make the trees grow faster or anything. Seriously if you want to save the earth then why dont you just stop taking plastic bags from the counter. Haha to show our disapproval three of us wore red instead of green. DIE, DIE.
School tomorrow.
Its starting to rain now.
I feel sick all over.
♥ 10:05 PM
Friday, July 06, 2007
<data:blog.pageTitle/>
But I want to do that because I want you.
I want all of you, forever, every day.Today went relatively okay. I wasnt exactly listening in class except for like physics or something. Afterschool met up with rah to go shopping. Haha guess who ponned school, slept till twelve and turned up in a shirt that says "your t-shirt sucks"? Missed her btw, our scheldues are almost..in a way just so we wont ever get to meet. Yeah of course we seperated soon enough and i was left alone like loser kid to buy birthday presents >:/
Seriously i think i should go out one day and buy all the birthday presents for everybody i know for the rest of the year. I always end up being very good at buying things for myself when im out alone which is bad because im not supposed to be spending so much money damnit.
I saw alot people's eyecandy out of school today.
(which, when i come to think of it, is completely unfair
WHY DIDNT I GET T MEET MY OWN EYECANDY HUH)
Chinese O'level oral on thursday was a major screw up btw haa haaha. I kinda made up my own chinese terms and sounded stupid even though the topic was easy okay dont remind me huh. Went to choir with sore throat, lousy mood and a splitting headache.
I had to take strepsils and everything I PREPARED from MY OWN WELFARE FILE, which i have to say, make me look like a total retard.
Xuans told me about love and how its not supposed to be self-seeking. I wonder how is that ever going to be so.
I think i made somebody angry today.
But im glad i did what i really wanted to do.
Spoon, i hope you're better.
If you still remember, AJA AJA FIGHTING?
♥ 8:14 PM
Tuesday, July 03, 2007
<data:blog.pageTitle/>
You’re all kinds of beautiful as you end my day
obsession confession?I think i know why they seperated me and abby.
We talk too much, like seriously hahhah :)
Afterschool today was good.
Lessons and everything else was just ugh.
Quicker than things should ever go
've just lost another loved one all the way in America.
Its been long, i admit i dont miss her all the time.
But she means something special to me.
I really dont know what to say about this.
She left before we even had the chance to say goodbye, or anything.
Dont ask me why things always happen this way.
Im in no mood to study.
I think im going to fail everything this term.
P.S Astrowonder, hope you're better.
♥ 10:52 PM
Monday, July 02, 2007
<data:blog.pageTitle/>
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in youThe weekend has been pretty unproductive. Other than the afternoon at macs, i didnt study much. Basically theres just alot of work to do and pretty frustrating aye. An unexpected letter from the little friend we met recently at KK hospital was so sweet it made the both of us smile. Its not the content but more of the fact that she actuallly remembered and wrote in that makes it so heartwarming.
I stopped coming online. I know i do still love you, very much. Which is what hurts the most. And in case you were wondering, i've met my perfect stranger. And i dont know what to do.
Yeah okay i should stop being emo, start studying and watch more youtube. And my handphone wallpaper says "i love you, myra" hahahah.
"You're not just a friend. You're a really, really special friend."(:
♥ 7:14 PM
