Thursday, September 27, 2007
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Tonight I've fallen and I can't get upI need Your loving hands to come and pick me upSocial studies and English Paper I today.
With the hell lot i studied I thought i deserved a fairly good grade for SS. Sometimes i really dont understand why they just want to make things difficult for us. SBQ was the worst ever, i didnt even understand the long texts about Myanmar and ASEAN. So i'll probably get like y'know, one mark for provenance ha. ha. I did manage everything i could on ethnic diversity though, till my hand hurts. I think i included alot of irrelevant information, but thats okay. At that point of time to me its like, write now or never.
Heh and i think the whole attempt to make us all fall in love with the gah-ment is seriously not working. Try something else?
"The normal congenial 'you' is becoming quite introverted. This is becoming increasingly more obvious because you seem to shy away from participating in everyday activities. You are refusing to allow yourself to become involved or to participate with others and it is the reluctance to communicate that is the inherent cause of your problems. "-Colorgenics Test.Haha maybe. I dont like the feeling of some
thing being able to analyse my thoughts (amazingly accurately) just through my choice of colour cubes, but im not going to deny the fact that it is becoming pretty apparent that i enjoy being alone more and more. I know this doesnt sound like a good change, but i wont assume its a bad one either. Or maybe its just the whole end-of-years thing. We'll see.
My head hurts now, i cannot finish Amath i feel like crying. Im pretty upset about quite alot of things or maybe just one. Im almost afraid to think about what is going to happen next. I need to have more Faith in the people around me. Or, i need to have more Faith in myself.
♥ 6:30 PM
Monday, September 24, 2007
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Eat, Sleep, Repeat
Totally made my day.
Psalms 138:8 The Lord will fulfill his purpose for me; your love, O Lord, endures forever.I chanced upon this verse at the Forum yesterday. It gave me hope and plenty to think through. Mass this morning was extremely good. They played Heart of Worship and i fell in love with it all over again.
♥ 3:21 PM
Saturday, September 22, 2007
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And if this is ever meant to end
then i hope it ends where it began
In twelve hours time i will be on my way to collect my piano cert.
You know, my non-existent one.
This is actually quite depressing.
Out studying today.
I saw kiddie rides within an area.
It goes up to more than twenty bucks.
Twenty bucks to let your kid gallop on a freaking toy dinosaur
that doesnt even move faster than you.
Sometimes i stare at the people around me and wonder
"What on earth were they thinking?"
Seriously.
♥ 11:42 PM
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
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There's just no one who gets me like you do
"Time has got a way of taking back everything you thought you had"
Morning jog didnt go well, i had something else on my mind and it wasnt that much of a comforting thought. I must sound really silly i mean, who cares about morning jog, really? But at that point of time i honestly felt quite, incapable. Like I cant seem to measure up sometimes. I think this is what eoys revision does to everybody. Brings out the worst in all of us, no?
Today went okay. Im trying to remain optimistic about things. It all makes me look insanely happy in school giving everybody the brilliant impression that im okay about everything. I think that works for me.
This week hasnt exactly been productive enough so far, my willpower is starting to fail me. Haha in attempts to lead a healthier lifestyle, (reduce coffee intake!) i now have coffee AND juice to last me through school.
I quite like the Carpenters, is that weird for someone my age?
♥ 7:07 PM
Tuesday, September 18, 2007
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Love never fails.
I promised myself to finish the essay and two more chapters of chem tonight. Tell me how is that supposed to be possible. Conclusion? Never make promises if unsure of what you're about to guarantee.
I starting to think that the more you care, the more you have to lose.
♥ 9:06 PM
Monday, September 10, 2007
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You're the light, you're the light
When i close my eyes
1.) Do not trust any one
2.) Do not show emotion
3.) Do not fall asleep
From The Invasion,
I think i need to follow all three,
though i think more emphasis on the last two.
Alright's been an awful day. Bloody detention.
Okay so i've been such a good girl at stnicks i didnt even know detentions existed in our school. Haha i thought they'd just make you run as CWO. But, no. We had to sit outside the HOD dept to do work cannot talk haha. Its kinda my own fault anyway, so i really ought to just shut up. And therefore Rule number three: Do not fall asleep. Or more of, Do not fall asleep in the library during recess and be late back to the Hall.
Maybe i should just stay in the hall the WHOLE of recess tomorrow. Its not like i go to the canteen much these days anyway.
I didnt want Shujie and Ethel to wait around for me, so we didnt study together today. And i had to study all alone at Starbucks and it was not very productive because i fell asleep ): Like, really ): Haha had quite a talk with the guy at starbucks he asked me why i can afford all the biscotti and fraps/coffee everyday i didnt know what to say. Then he told me that even though he works there he cant even afford it everyday. Okay that made me feel really bad maybe next time i'll go to the Kopitiam to study instead.
Feels :/ to be back at school, I missed my tablepartner though!
Haha Waimoo,
Superficial: Concerned with only what is apparent or obvious; shallow.
♥ 10:17 PM
Friday, September 07, 2007
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We dont have to worry about tomorrow,
we know it's going to come whether we like it or not.
Good morning, i didnt sleep at all last night.
Yeh well i had so much to do, thanks SN Lit department.
I really hate all your stupid essay questions.
I watched the sunrise from the study room windowstill, i swear nothingggg beats that. Going to sleep right now, im starting to think that i lead a extremely unhealthy lifestyle ha, ha. Well before that, <3 Sylvia for doing MSND with me all through the night. Its so much easier to stay awake when someone is talking to you on msn haha.
♥ 6:56 AM
Thursday, September 06, 2007
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Do you feel that the Lord has forgotten your needs?
Just remember that God is always working in ways we cannot see
I listen to this song about eight times everyday, things always seem better each time the lyrics run through my head :)
I cant sleep right now, too much coffee? Haha. So much happened the past week i dont feel like explaining or anything. Work distracts me from all the problems right now and im out every single day. Its a fair excuse to run away from things i dont want to face. The weekend has been amazingly productive considering the fact that i managed to catch a movie, shop, go for piano, finish six chapters of math and still sleep like, 18 hours haha.
I realise i study at the weirdest places haha say, who studies at Airports, Hospitals and Mrt stations? But then again im productive there so - who cares, really. I think i need to be less like an idiot and absorb knowledge faster. There's so little time left & i keep feeling sudden pangs of paranoia while studying in which i would message Lou texts such as "I think im going to fail!!!" and "I dont like to be challenged!!" with many exclamation marks and ..Well you get the general idea.
Emath down, so much so much more to go.
And im going to try to force myself to sleep right now cause if my mum awakes and sees me in front of the laptop.. Well let's just say the entire neighbourhood can forget about having a proper night's rest. Not exaggerating here.
P.S I just thought i ought to mention this, problems with ticketing and such due to the power failure but im really thankful for abigail chua and myra who were the ones actually collecting the tickets and informing me important details and such. I basically sat around, did nothing, and sent many texts of "thanks" and "thankyou" :/ Hopefully everything goes well on Sunday, and, :)
♥ 3:44 AM
