Mmm. I need to start taking Chinese O's seriously.
The paper is on the 31st, yeah im sure the paper itself would be quite enough to last us this halloween. I dont think being a chinese leader will actually help me to get a better grade either.


Went over to Zhiyang's in the afternoon, for chinese. I thought it went okay (considering the fact that i was home watching Kyle Xy before i went over) I've also found someone to attend Physics tuition with me :) I think im much too dependent on others. Haha yeah and thats probably why I think being the youngest one at home and in church is just great.

I've been thinking. Apart from being true in certain ways, i think the Colourgenics test is really stupid. I mean, all the results tell you is that oh you're 'tired' and 'stressed'. Stuff like that. And we'll all go, yeah, we are tired, see? Even the test says so. Its the whole psychological thing, and it'd probably make us more 'tired' and 'stressed' than we already are. Let's face it, who's not tired? People who aren't tired are probably the ones who'd never get to the Paul Goldin page. People who aren't tired are at the age of four playing lego.

Okay, Chinese.
I have VS paper, but no answer key.
Thanks ah ):


xuan: Aiyah its raining now, im trapped. I should call POSB to bring umbrella for me.
me: hahahah. I think its OCBC.

Reflection day had a truly cathartic effect over me,
in the physical and emotional sense. It was most ironic.

I was feeling miserable all through the first session,
and im quite sorry if i acted in any way, (which i believe i did) like a kid throwing a tantrum But I didnt mean to, i swear!
I, Cannot, Stand, Pain. I think thats quite a known fact.
So the first session had no therapeutic effect on me or whatsoever. In fact, it was really the opposite.

Threw up all over during recess, and i'll skip the whole part about me being unable to walk etc. Its actually quite embarrassing. Lou, Jiafeng, Waimoo, Sylvia, Erica were so sweet about it, they made me feel quite bad about making such a big fuss out of the whole thing.

Missed almost the whole of the second session, i thought it was quite a pity. Reflection day happens to be one of the few school days i actually feel worth being present for, so, yeah. Really. One of the cleaners of the school came over with a pail for me, hahhahah, and all sorts of things which she believes would make me feel better. None of those worked though, not the sour plums nor whatever it was she rubbed over my neck. I thought it was her concern for me, the fact that she cared so much for someone she didnt actually know. I think thats just great.

I took Panadol. It worked wonders. So i guess their painkillers are not known for nothing. The last of the Reflection day was just good. The Prayer was something for us to reflect about.


Got home, slept.
Woke up to freshly-baked cranberry muffins.
I have so much to Thank God about,
all the blessings i recieve every single day.


Sister: You can have as much as you want, i baked plenty - And, its fat-free!

Funny how so much can change over a year.
Stranger how some things will always be the same.

Day out, i think i loosened up quite abit :)

To: My only sister.

Happy Birthday. I love you. I love living life with you by my side. I love being the younger one. You bring me to places, you teach me things. You know me in a way that nobody else does. I've never been without you my entire life, and i think that's just great.

I had to keep secrets for different groups of your friends this week. It was crazy. But in a way, im glad there are so many around you who are able to love and appreciate you the way i do.

Till you're back, love you :)


Sister: "I'll drive all of you to Vancouver when i get a driving license"
All of us: (in the most singaporean manner) "You dare to drive, we dont dare to sit in!"

__________

The exams are over.
I might get too used to this new-found freedom.

Sentosa with Three Faith was great.
I like Sandcastles and Sunshine.

Our memory is the strangest of all things. Sometimes the more you want to forget something, the clearer the recollection becomes. I heard that from somewhere, funny how incredibly true that has recently become.

Watching A Walk to Remember was a (terrible) mistake, I cried so much over it and it wasnt even my first time watching.

"Maybe God has a bigger plan for me than i have for myself"

Its amazing how two people can have such unfailing faith, even when one of them was dying.

And, wish me luck. Im about to embark on a brand new journey. Im starting to take in less and less of what other people are going to/are already commenting about it, because all the negative remarks are really, not very encouraging. I promised myself till post-end of years, why do i lack the courage now?

Daybreak :)

Must have woken up too late. By the time i reached, the darkness of the dawn had already left the early morn. But the rest of it was just as good, watching the sun rise and the light engulf the beginning of a new day. I am really thankful for that.


Rah thinks im being really silly, but im waking up even earlier tomorrow! No matter what! I dont even know why nobody bothered to wake me up early this morning, along with the entire family who have work/school/other events* ):

Im going to start working on Authoritarian Regimes. Now. It gets quite frustrating, really. But i need to make up the hours of studying i missed yesterday. In any case, im glad i caught the most amazing part of the day. Feels like a new beginning - in a weird way.



Its a beautiful day.


*Oh by other events, i mean my DAD is going to climb Bukit Timah hill today. HAHAHAHAH. Daddy, when was it since you last jogged? 1989?

And,

guess what i found?

"Go on a Voyage of Life with our retirement planning board game! The Voyage is designed to teach players about retirement and financial planning concepts in an easy interactive manner. It's also a fun way to learn more about CPF through quizzes."


!

Alright.. Interactive games to teach us about CPF. In a almost, monopoly-like manner. My character retired at age 62 within a few minutes. She had a monthly retirement income of $394. Maybe I should have clicked "Take Public Transport" instead of the "Buy your own car".

You can compete with me! Like, try it out and ..see who's character has more monthly retirement income at the end of the game.

Hahah really. I dont even know what to say.