Saturday, March 29, 2008
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Today I,
1) was told, for the first time in my life, to run 'as slowly as i can' for a relay
2) ran rounds
3) got spun 360 degrees in the air on the meteorite (there were no safety
precautions and i screamed like mad/thought krislyn and i were going to die)
4) patronized the same stall thrice for lemon popsicles
5) distributed free gifts..freely
6) cried really badly at the haunted house
7) walked till there were blisters on my feet
8) didnt see the people i missed
9) saw people i didnt want to see
10) helped denise with her ball game because she couldnt aim and was losing very badly! (and i got the ball in!!)
11) missed class outing
12) cheered for st nicks
13) ate alot
14) felt tired
15) had fun
I was walking out to the bus stop when i caught the most wondrous sight.
The feeling was, bittersweet incredible.
Every sunrise is remarkably beautiful in its own way.
♥ 10:27 PM
Thursday, March 27, 2008
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Your love is amazingTo only my Maker my Father my Savior
Redeemer Restorer Rebuilder Rewarder
To only a God like You
Do I give my praiseI stopped updating for awhile.
Combined service on Sunday. The speaker was pretty engaging but..there just didnt seem to be any particular idea/mindset he wished to impress upon us, so(?)
Went for the Easter Bazaar at St Andrew's right after that. I refused to join in because i really, cannot, play Captain's ball (or soccer) But I offered moral support okay, i was clapping/cheering at the spectators' stand. Go Praise Team! Moral support is good.
Though occasionally feeling an increasingly unbearable urge to stand up in the middle of Amath class and scream loudly to relieve stress (I HATE MATH), school this week 's been surprisingly bearable up till now. Fiesta coming up in two days and i see frightening carousels and tents being set up all over the school. Stayed back after school to clean the (freaking dirty/dusty) books for the Jumble Sale. Yet, funny, i recall spending alot more time and effort for Fiesta'06 preparations. Yes, every freaking PW period we were painting banners and placards.
I suppose the PW periods have all been replaced by remedials and extra lessons.
I'm probably going to get E for the pathetic speech i delivered today but that's okay. I'll make up for it by doing trial examination papers. According to Mrs Chan, we need to do twenty. I will do twenty one. Im supposed to be reading through social studies now, but i really dont feel like reading about Mas Selamat and looking at pictures of bombings and blood right now. My self-disipline level is seriously, negative.
PE tomorrow.
They are going to time us.
Oh no.
♥ 7:32 PM
Thursday, March 20, 2008
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Falsehood
Yes Sabrina was standing at the side of the road counting the number of tinny lightbulbs(!?!?) She made me laugh.
I got home yesterday evening feeling utterly exhausted. Twenty minutes later i recieved a late text and i walked all the way out again to buy sixteen dollars worth of plastic bags. Im thankful that most of the people i work with are my friends. I suppose that's what kept me from texting a long and unpleasant message expressing exactly how i felt at that point of time.
An accurate reccount of my day would be alike the english composition i wrote in primary school on the topic of 'An Unlucky Day". I hate it when taxi drivers attempt to shortchange me. Look, i've been taught to count.
I dont like being wrongly accused either.
I've been feeling completely depleted and burned out for the past few days. Should stop falling asleep during classes. I need time to readjust myself. Haha yes welcome back to school term, you don't have to look forward to the june holidays because there would be none. And get used to sleeping less. On a brighter note, Choir today went well. I screamed. Alot. Ran wild and wasted alot of water/plastic bags (oops) Yay comm. Within such a short period of time, i think the entire thing was pretty well thought out.
'I'll be home late today, okay remember to lock the doors dont let mas selamat come in!!' My sister left a note for me before she left. I've forgotten how it lonely it feels like when both my parents are abroad. I think im going to waste alot of electricity by turning on all the freaking televisions in the house so that i'd feel less alone.
♥ 8:48 PM
Monday, March 17, 2008
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Lord, give us strength to live for you
and glorify Your nameHow much am i really worth?Im worth the price that God has paid for me - The Secret of Loving, Josh Mcdowell
I found an old book on the Secret of Loving while trying to sort out the books for the Jumble sale on Fiesta (Haha yes i still have one hundred and twenty dollars worth of coupons, in case you're interested. Im desperate) I honestly thought it'd be one of those crappy self-improvement books on marriage with a section on 'How to find The Right one' and answers to why you're still unattached and boring. I picked it up with the intention of having a good laugh.
I was, wrong.
Today i witnessed moral courage in several different forms.
Tomorrow i will go to school and learn how to adapt to changes.
I think im going to miss Waiteng ):
♥ 10:36 PM
Sunday, March 16, 2008
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Make my heart attack: school starts tomorrow. lol. you're in a bad mood, i know you so well.Haha yes im sitting here wishing that school doesnt start tomorrow.
Am i always
this predictable?
It's been a particularly odd week for me. I felt strangely tired all the time but its not like i've accompolished alot either.
This morning i made one of the more difficult decisions i've ever had to made, and im not exactly in the mood to sing Anastasia's "life is full of choices..". I wasn't forced, or anything - it was just something i knew had to be done..eventually. I hate it when life leads me to awkward twists and dead ends. For 30 seconds, i wasn't even my usual fickle-minded self. Its like someone else spoke through me. Have no idea what drove me into making such a ?!? decision, but im aware of the consequences this might lead to and i pray that something good will come out of this..eventually.
Sometimes i wish things were, alittle different. Im still working on alot of things, but right now im pretty unsure of what's ahead. I realize things are actually alot better when your emotions dont fluctuate due to circumstances and when you don't actually expect something out of somebody. I saw a blood donation ad on TV yesterday and i couldnt answer my own question as to why i stopped volunteering at SGH/KK this year.
Service was, good. We're still on Ephesians, but Saturday's service was alittle different from what i expected. Its different when you
read about Christian ethics and when you actually
learn how to apply it.
Oh and,
Me: Is the he the one she's engaged to?
My sister: No!!! That guy's already married with kids! She's engaged to Joseph!
Me: Who's Joseph!
My sister: (points blatantly to a guy sitting in the row right behind us)
Joseph: ??
My sister: (turns around) my sister doesn't know who you are.
Die, i should try to shake hands with more people/ make an effort to remember people's names.
At times i log in blogger with so many different feelings and pent-up emotions. I click 'compose', stare into the screen of the Presario for twenty minutes, and i realize my english is so crap and i cant bloody write. I should take third language. My third language should still be english.
All i feel like doing right now is just to listen to something nice, play abit of piano and fall asleep.
It should stop raining already.
♥ 10:05 PM
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
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Sweet, in a
Heardz at RV
I've almost forgotten how it feels like to just, perform.
Alexandra road feels so foreign to me.
Should definitely take a trip down to the West someday.
♥ 10:40 PM
Monday, March 10, 2008
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Incidentally in midst of going around stores, i also found out that my dad uses the cheapest hairgel, ever. That made me feel quite bad, considering the fact that i've never earned a single cent in my life yet im the one going around spending money like a mad fiend.
Performance tomorrow?
♥ 8:34 PM
Sunday, March 09, 2008
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Second to the right and straight on till morning"Barnsley knocked Chelsea out!! It almost makes up for the disappointment"( We're out of FA!?)
Hahhah I love Louisa :)
Disney on Ice!
Haha i think i spend all my money on ridiculous things.
I loved everything, the music and the way the production really took my mind off things. Saying all these probably makes me sound like i have the mentality of a five year old but i dont care.
I want to marry Peter Pan.
:)
A'level results are out, i think my sister did really well.
In any case i'd be losing her to some university hostel, and the thought of having one less person around doesnt feel too good. I should learn how to be more self-reliant/independent. And i guess we all grow up (and grow old), how awful.
Probably worth mentioning, my term results came out on that exact same date as well. Im disappointed, in the sense that i didnt do as well as i
thought i would. Like i dont know what else to do how hard i should try how much can i give how far am i going to get. Felt alittle like i've been cheated out of something. Talked to a several, learned alot. Things will get better, i think. Or at least, i hope.
Attended a pretty good service last evening, think i've gained insight towards, well, quite a number of things. I left Times this afternoon then i went straight into Trumpet Praise. I feel, helpless.
♥ 11:38 PM
Monday, March 03, 2008
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These came in today:
"I've got one good news and one bad news to tell you. Good news is i managed to collect all the jackets today. Right design and sizes. Bad news is, the lady took initiative, completely ignored what i submitted to her, and went about enlarging the font size about fifty times. Now the font is monstrous! "Haha yes, that is exactly what i texted abigail today.
The picture isn't even an accurate illustration of the monstrosity of text. Seriously, its huge. I dont even know whether i should be angry or not, the lady probably meant well. In any case, i suppose it'd help next year. If we actually wear this, we dont even need to put up a banner for CCA fair. People would be able to spot us from three miles away.
♥ 10:56 PM
Sunday, March 02, 2008
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Cut to mirror your intentionsHebrews 11:1 Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen.Spent Saturday morning at the Church of St Alphonsus/ "Excuse me sir, would you please help?" - as one of our school's ingenious attempts to get rid of Fiesta coupons. I didnt even finish selling half the amount of coupons i was given. I was so desperate i wanted to Kowtow to them. Conversations with people there made me realize just i've been pretty ignorant as a christian. I know little. I've, still got so much to learn.
Im pretty impressed with the way people at Novena church worship. I guess you've got to be there to experience it. In case you were wondering, i still have like One hundred and twenty dollars worth of Fiesta coupons unsold. Haha yes please buy from me.
Had a pretty good yum-seng time last night. I love wedding dinners/good music. Good times, our usual childish antics and familiar conversations.
Are you sure your first name isn't Gillette? 'Cause you're the best a man can get.Haha yes, and that's the worst pick-up line i've ever heard.
Im not ready for Chem SPA next week. I dont like practical assessments. Their land mine-like tendencies are simply, unbearable.
(Am i making sense?)
♥ 2:11 PM
