Friday, October 30, 2009 <data:blog.pageTitle/> I've been treating this like a Tumblr for way too long.
Life has been pretty awesome. God had blessed me with plenty of opportunities to explore and experience exciting new things in the upcoming months, as well as the love and support of people who matter (to me, at least) I was most astonished to find out that all my weeks will be pretty packed, right up till the day before we leave for Europe. There is so much to look forward to, and everything falls very nicely into place. It is awesome to witness that God still comes true for me, everyday, despite the fact i've been turning away from Him in some ways. His grace is enough for me to want to run around in circles or do a jig at 2 am in the morning.
Right now we're going through oral presentation week, which is undoubtingly synonymous with my 'idle' status on adium. All the stress and the conflict linked to project work is a massive blur, and all i can recall is the long breaks, the lovely weather (i love it when it rains when im indoors)and the fact that we've been enjoying each other's company as a class. Speaking of class, i don't know whether 09s18 will still be the same next year. I have no courage to pursue the school's stand in this, i just want to squeeze my eyes shut and make everything disappear. I don't doubt that God has His plans for all of us, but that doesn't change the fact that i might cry if anyone has to switch classes. I'm not going to pretend that i share a special relationship with every single one of my classmates, because i don't. I just feel that everyone is important because all thirty of us is what makes us.. Us.
The guys taught me DoTA today, it turned out to be quite fun! Now i understand why guys spend hours camping at the lan shop. In fact, i will definitely join them if i ever display any semblance of imbal DoTA prowess! ^^ My first DoTA character was Lina Inverse, who moved very slowly because i could only afford to buy her cheap boots. I was also facing slight difficulties in differentiating my minions from the scourge's minions, so when they all come together i just spam my effects and hope for the best. The above is also one of the contributing factors which led to me getting pwned all the time.
For some reason, i'm glad that the week is coming to an end (for the record, my weeks start on saturdays and end on fridays) It's not that i don't enjoy free time in school, it's just that i don't quite advocate the fact that we're dawdling around with no sense of purpose.
Even DoTA has a purpose, which is to destroy the scourge's frozen throne.
♥ 12:43 AM
Wednesday, October 28, 2009 <data:blog.pageTitle/>
"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, 'Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?' Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others." — Marianne Williamson, A Return to Love: Reflections on the Principles of a Course in Miracles
Just a face in the city Just a tear on a crowded street But you are one in a million And you belong to Me
And I want you to know That I'm not letting go Even when you come undone
I love you more than the sun And the stars that I taught how to shine You are mine, and you shine for me too I love you yesterday and today And tomorrow, I'll say it again and again I love you more I love you more
:)
♥ 12:33 AM
Sunday, October 25, 2009 <data:blog.pageTitle/> In a place like Singapore, food brings everyone together. Our breakfast with CT on friday consisted of a massive catered spread, coupled with all sorts of foodies contributed by everyone in class. (think: potluck) I had crystal jade with my parents this afternoon, followed by Popeye's with Phebe and Gail's cell in the evening. Now, guess who is heading all the way to the east to have katong laksa, and possibly Koi milk tea with Bumblebee and Denise tomorrow? How to lose weight like that :0
We're approaching November! In the past i'd be craning my neck, looking forward to the couple of weeks leading up to christmas. But not this time. Right now i'd like for time to pass real slowly, because every new day spells a quiet sort of perfection. Please spare me some time to appreciate the finer things in life. I'd like to take it in, fully, before it all slips through my fingers. I don't want to fall in love with yesterday.
♥ 12:53 AM
Wednesday, October 21, 2009 <data:blog.pageTitle/>
You are my love and my light
I visited my grandmother after school and spent hours playing with these kids. They sap the life out of me, but i love them all the same (!)
I really enjoy this strange new freedom, by which i have the luxury of time to travel more than an hour from school, just to visit family and spend quality time with them. We all have 24 hours a day, but some days just seem to be more meaningful than the others.
P.S PZY i h8 you!! The kids were so disappointed when you didn't turn up. They kept asking me where you were, and i didn't know what to say, because i didn't want to explain about PW.
♥ 10:50 PM
Monday, October 19, 2009 <data:blog.pageTitle/> People scooped up these tabloids, devoured their gossip, and on previous trips to England, I had always done the same. But now, for some reason, I found myself thinking about Morrie whenever I read anything silly or mindless. I kept picturing him there, in the house with the Japanese maple and the hardwood floors, counting his breath, squeezing out every moment with his loved ones, while I spent so many hours on things that meant absolutely nothing to me personally: movie stars, supermodels, the latest noise out of Princess Di or Madonna or John F. Kennedy, Jr. In a strange way, I envied the quality of Morrie’s time even as I lamented its diminishing supply. Why did we, bother with all the distractions we did? Back home, the O. J. Simpson trial was in full swing, and there were people who surrendered their entire lunch hours watching it, then taped the rest so they could watch more at night. They didn’t know O. J. Simpson. They didn’t know anyone involved in the case. Yet they gave up days and weeks of their lives, addicted to someone else’s drama. - Tuesdays with Morrie, Mitch Albom
In time i realised that: while i'm at liberty to comment and muse about other people's lives, (don't tell me you've never been guilty of cyber-stalking!) it is my own life which i'll have to live out when i wake up every morning.
P.SI really don't know where all these little realisations came from. I must be getting older! P.S.S I should also mention that Tuesdays with Morrie - insightful and inspiring as it is, is not my favourite Mitch Albom novel.
♥ 1:34 AM
Sunday, October 18, 2009 <data:blog.pageTitle/>
There's no God like Jehovah
CHILDHOOD FRIEND:
WE'RE GETTING PROMOTED - TOGETHER! (going through A levels with you makes it so much easier)
LOU:
7 YEARS OF FRIENDSHIP HAS BEEN PERFECT (i want to be with you for the next 7000000 years!)
♥ 10:30 PM
<data:blog.pageTitle/> JIE:
WISH YOU WERE HERE!
When Mummy is unwell, she cannot go shopping
Mummy: The following are some of the groceries that we need.. (short list of miscellaneous perishables) Daddy: Can you take photos of them? Easier to find
These are the days of Elijah, Declaring the word of the Lord: And these are the days of Your servant Moses, Righteousness being restored. And though these are days of great trial, Of famine and darkness and sword, Still, we are the voice in the desert crying 'Prepare ye the way of the Lord!'
Behold He comes riding on the clouds, Shining like the sun at the trumpet call; Lift your voice, it's the year of jubilee, And out of Zion's hill salvation comes.
These are the days of Ezekiel, The dry bones becoming as flesh; And these are the days of Your servant David, Rebuilding a temple of praise. These are the days of the harvest, The fields are as white in Your world, And we are the labourers in Your vineyard, Declaring the word of the Lord!
There's no God like Jehovah There's no God like Jehovah
♥ 3:27 AM
Saturday, October 17, 2009 <data:blog.pageTitle/>
Fallen Princesses
"Fallen Princesses place Fairy Tale characters in modern day scenarios. In all of the images, the Princess is placed in an environment that articulates her conflict. The '...happily ever after' is replaced with a realistic outcome and addresses current issues." - Dina Goldstein [Available]
...
Now tell me, what do you believe in?
Will somebody please explain to me why Disney is expected to practice extensive social responsibility (oh, with the public watching them like a hawk) when other media conglomerates are allowed to propagate similar mindsets and get away scott-free. Talk about double standards! Quite obviously, people are just conveniently blaming Disney for the negative impacts of mass media. I think we've forgotten the primary objective of Walt Disney. It's an operating business, not a social welfare service. Disney, like all other forms of mass media, will simply deliver what sells.. which is uh, tailored to meet OUR demands. Let's just quit the blaming game - for goodness sake, if you're so afraid, keep your kids away from the TV until they learn to be discerning. While you're at it, why not remove the books, radios, magazines and newspapers as well? We'll have an empty nursery playroom, just in case!
P.S I still believe in this!
♥ 11:13 PM
Tuesday, October 13, 2009 <data:blog.pageTitle/>
The weather is bad that's why im sad
I hated 500 days of summer, (sorry mel - it was really horrid) mostly because it conveyed the truth about relationships, which i hated. I'd rather be deluded than disillusioned.
The weather makes me moody - imagine having to walk to school when it's pouring, what great incentive. I've been dreading school every morning because all everyone (including me) is interested in is how we did for promos. In fact, some of the teachers even went so far as to go through the promos solutions before we actually get to know our results. Throughout the lesson I could feel tiny explosions going on inside of me - not exactly the brightest way to calm our nerves. All i can say is that i love my class and i don't really want to think about whether we'll be able to promote as a class, because my worrying has never been able to solve anything.
Despite everything, i want to give God the praises due: seeing my name on the SIMUN list made me particularly glad. I say glad, not happy, because i know i don't deserve it. I can't speak half as well as the others, nor am i particularly knowledgeable on wordly affairs - i just did my best and God saw fit to bless me with the grace of people along the way.
The results will be out on friday and i'm starting to feel all jittery - like how some mornings you forget to watch the sunrise, and you ask God, where is Your grace?
I can almost see His nail-pierced hands.
♥ 10:09 PM
Sunday, October 11, 2009 <data:blog.pageTitle/> JIE:
Alles Gute zum Geburtstag (You're officially 20, and old!! ^^)
*visa dance* *visa dance* *visa dance*
♥ 12:17 AM
Thursday, October 08, 2009 <data:blog.pageTitle/>
MY CLASS TOO CUTE! (:
P.S CHLOE LENT ME THIS!
10 thousand reasons to love free time ^^
♥ 9:32 PM
Tuesday, October 06, 2009 <data:blog.pageTitle/> I've been reading up on the various university admission requirements and feeling rather helpless towards everything. Quite obviously, I'm heading nowhere without God's grace
♥ 7:42 PM
Sunday, October 04, 2009 <data:blog.pageTitle/> As far as the east is from the west, so far has He removed our transgressions from us - Psalms 103:12
I know You've washed me white, turned my darkness into light I need Your peace to get me through, to get me through this night I can't live by what I feel, but by the truth Your word reveals I'm not holding on to You, but You're holding on to me You're holding on to me
Jesus, You know just how far the east is from the west I don't have to see the man I've been come rising up in me again In the arms of Your mercy I find rest 'cause You know just how far the east is from the west From one scarred hand to the other
The most exciting thing that happened today is that i ate at Joaquim with my parents (i've been wanting to try out the lunch buffet for ages ^^) and bought a BC romper. I spent the rest of my lovely sunday reading up on Thailand and United Nations, which made me glad that i didn't take History for A levels. I mean, i'm okay with reading one or two articles about Cambodia-Thai border disputes, but UN resolutions? Millenium Development Goals 1-8? Question mark? Question mark? I realise that i only have a heart for certain areas of humanitarian work, mostly those which i can relate to* This made me think about all that Jesus went through on earth just so that He can relate with us today.
*eg. Im for women's rights, of course. Hello what's with all that nonsense about domestic violence and whatnot, c'mon we deserve better!!!
♥ 8:18 PM
Saturday, October 03, 2009 <data:blog.pageTitle/>
The way you walk, the way you talk The way you smile sets me off The way you move, the way you groove Makes me glad that i'm with you
One of my favourite scenes from the ugly truth:
I'm going to listen to Latin music more often, it's so full of life! This makes jazz seem so sombre.
“People say that Orion is called Orion because Orion was a hunter and the constellation looks like a hunter with a club and a bow and arrow. But this is really silly because it is just stars, and you could join up the dots in any way you wanted, and you could make it look like a lady with an umbrella who is waving, or the coffee maker which Mrs Shears has, which is from Italy, with a handle and steam coming out, or like a dinosaur” - The curious incident of the dog in the night-time, Mark Haddon
I've always been drawn to Christopher Boone and the way his mind works.
Gladys inspired me to pick up The curious incident of the dog in the night-time and read it once again. Since then i've developed a curious urge to read up on all the themes and symbols that i failed to identify when i first read the novel. All the astronomical gibberish that used to puzzle me is starting to make some sense now. The thing about modern novels is that there doesn't seem to be much resources around! Literary help, anybody?
♥ 11:50 PM
Thursday, October 01, 2009 <data:blog.pageTitle/>
Skype madness at 2am this morning. Tell me, why would anybody want to give up on new media and embrace flintstones!
♥ 11:02 PM
"It's ok if it's not a white christmas, we can sleigh ride on the sand - We'll bundle up in sweatshirts and sweaters just don't you let go of my hand"
Eliza Teo Zhi Ying
16,
CHIJ St Nicholas Girls'
St Andrew's Junior College
